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Post by melinda on Dec 3, 2013 0:04:25 GMT -6
wow so much emotion very beautifully written. You know I love all your stories, but this one impressed me so much! It may be the best written story you have ever written. I think you should post it on ff! Not only do you set the tone but you really get inside each character's head, and that is so impressive. I don't know where you're going with this, but I love it. It is so interesting to read and your writing here is just sooo good. I love how you have everyone so in character, and not only by their words but their thoughts and actions. Soo good...keep it up!
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Post by jessie on Dec 3, 2013 21:11:24 GMT -6
Chapter 19
Carol put her nightgown on, and sat in bed with the gun in her hand but it was covered by the blanket. Carol heard Emma's door shut, and she sat looking at the bedroom door her heart was racing. She saw Phillip come in, and he shut the door, and walked over to the bed.
"Is Emma ok"?
"Yes she is fine we are bonding quite well"
"She doesn't realize who you are you are the Devil"
He smiled , "You got dressed so I guess our fun tonight was a one time only deal"
"Yes I don't feel well"
Phillip smiled, "Carol I really did enjoy our time together but we both know what is going to happen in the next few minutes"?
Carol pulled out the gun as she got off the bed pointing it at Phillip, and she was angry he started to laugh.
"What are you laughing at you are about to die"?
"You better hope you kill me because if you just wound me, I will make you suffer, and I will love every minute of it"
"I will not that is a promise"
"I should have strangled you right after I used you like a cheap piece of trash"
"Shut up"
"Did you realize I didn't wear protection I could have gave you a special present that will arrive in 9 months"
Carol almost put the gun down but she lifted it up, and whispered.
"I will enjoy killing you , and I will give you pity not like what you did to Merle"
'Like you give a crap about Merle"
"I think he was a better man than you at least he tired to save us from you. You could have killed him and ended it but you let him turn. You knew his Brother would find him, and you knew that would hurt him"
"Daryl found him how sweet is that I was hoping it would be one of the Group but I was hoping he would turn one of you"
"Andrea should have slit your throat when you slept she must have wished she listened to me when she realized you are pure evil"
"Andrea was a woman she knew how to please a man you not so much. I cared about Andrea she died because she turned on me but you , I wanted to see how low you would go to save your pathetic life"
"Shut up"
"Your Group didn't want you where are they Carol they don't care what happens to you. Your Daughter is dead because you allowed her to get bitten because you are a poor excuse for a Mother. You can stand there acting all tough but you are weak , and lonely no one cares about you Carol why don't you put that gun in your mouth, and put yourself out of your misery"
Carol was shaking she didn't care if anyone cared about her all she cared about was keeping Emma safe."
"Give me the gun Carol, I am getting tired of this". Phillip went to grab the gun but Carol aimed for his head, and shot a bullet right into his forehead. He went down like a ton of bricks as Carol keep the gun on him. She walked over, and screamed as she shot two more shots into his head as she moved away from him falling to her knees.
Daryl and Alex were close they could see the house but they heard the shots, and they both knew it meant Carol, and Emma were in danger. Alex and Daryl were running the bags on their back were slowing them down they dropped them but Daryl ran ahead he couldn't lose Carol not now when he was so close, she needed to know he loved her, and he would never let anyone hurt her again, that was a promise he would keep.
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Post by melinda on Dec 3, 2013 22:12:10 GMT -6
wow so shocking, I never thought you could write something like this. I always knew you were a good writer but this is different, and I love it. I hope Daryl finds her and they can get through everything together. I hope she'll be okay. I love this it is so good and I can't wait for more. wonderful job as usual, keep it up.
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Post by jessie on Dec 3, 2013 23:02:27 GMT -6
Chapter 20
Daryl ran up the stairs trying to open the door. Alex ran up opening the door with his keys as he yelled out to Carol. He ran to the living room, and than the kitchen, but he turned to Daryl.
"They must be upstairs." Daryl got his gun ready so did Alex as they walked upstairs. Alex needed to see if his little girl was safe if something happened to her he would never forgive himself. They walked to Emma's room , and Alex turned the light on, and walked over to the bed. Emma was snuggled holding her doll close. Alex sat down he was so relieved but Daryl asked him where Carol would be?
"Down the hall she is in the last room the shots must have come from somewhere else everything seems fine" Daryl walked out still holding his gun as he walked down the hall, and he saw the door open a little. He pushed it open slowly as he turned on the light. He stood in shock Carol was still on the floor, and 3 feet in front of her was a man obviously dead. He saw the gun by Carol, and he walked over to Carol, and knelt down touching her arm.
"Carol look at me are you ok"?
Carol was shaking she was staring at Phillip it was like she was waiting for him to get up, and kill her.
Daryl put his gun in his belt, and grabbed her face making her face him.
'Carol it is me what happened here"?
"I killed him Daryl , I killed him"
"I know but are you ok"?
Carol put her hands to her face, and started to cry. She will never be ok Daryl will hate her for sure, but she hates herself so she couldn't blame him .
"Carol I asked you a question did he hurt you"?
"He wanted to take Emma I heard him talking he was going to kill me. I knew I had to do anything to keep her safe, I did what I told Andrea to do"
"What I don't understand"?
"I killed the Governor Daryl" He jumped up walking over looking down, and he could see it was the Governor, and he felt such a rage the guy was in front of him. He was dead half his head was gone, Carol of all people killed him. Daryl started kicking him, and Carol was shocked she ran over grabbing Daryl pulling him away.
"I am going to kill Rick for making you go through this"
"Rick hates me he said no one would want me, and he said he didn't trust me with his children. I killed Karen, and David , and I did it because they were dying right in front of me. There was no medicine, I was scared for the children, and the Group. I was wrong God I regret it but he turned on me, and it hurt so bad. I hate Rick, and I will never forgive him for telling me he can never trust me around his children. I trusted him with my little girl he found her, and let her go telling her to go back to us alone. She was a little girl, and he let her go off alone, and one of those things out there killed her. I had to block her out of my head or I would go insane. I never blamed him, I forgave him but I would never harm his children, and I never would have let Carl or Judith out of my sight if I found them. He let me down, and he let Sophia down, and he turned his back on me, and I will never go back there not ever"
"What about those girls you promised to care for"?
"I can't think about them"
"You go back, and say you killed this scum you will be loved by everyone there"
"Daryl I can't go back"
"Hell you can't" Daryl grabbed her arm but Carol pulled away, and screamed.
"Don't touch me if you only knew what I did to survive you would hate me"
"You killed him that is all that matters"
Carol sat on the bed, and whispered, "I let him" She couldn't say another word but he knew he walked over knelling down, and whispered.
"He raped you"?
"It wasn't rape, I feel dead inside, I went somewhere else, but I let him have sex with me to safe Emma, and I don't know how I can live with myself"
Daryl got up, and he grabbed a blanket from the shelf, and walked over wrapping the Governor in it. He grabbed his feet, and started to pull him from the room.
Carol got up to help but he yelled, "I don't need your help "
She walked over to the bed, and sat down as he started dragging the body when Alex came in.
"Oh my God Carol are you ok"?
"Please help Daryl"
Alex walked over helping Daryl as they left the room Carol curled up as she started crying. She lost so much in her life her sweet girl, and her friends, and Daryl but what hurt the most she lost her dignity, she felt like she let herself down, and she knew right this moment she had nothing left to live for.
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Post by melinda on Dec 4, 2013 13:45:50 GMT -6
oh Daryl better man up and support his girl now! I wonder if her worst fears come true and she winds up pregnant that would be wrong but I would love to read it lol. I just want to see some comforting by Daryl here, and to see how he would handle the situation. Rick definitely deserves Daryl's wrath now! Love it I can't stop reading your wd stories
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Post by jessie on Dec 4, 2013 20:44:26 GMT -6
Chapter 21
Carol finally got up, and walked to the bathroom, and shut the bathroom door. She walked over , and grabbed the pail, and was filling the tub up from the water container that Alex had filled up with water for when they cleaned up. She normally heated some of the water up to make it less cold but right now she just wanted to feel clean. She got in sitting down her whole body shook it was like sitting on ice. She grabbed the wash cloth, and was washing her face, and she was crying she wanted this to be a nightmare that she could wake up from. She finally pulled her knees to her chest as she shook but all she could hear in her head was Phillips words. Carol put her hands to her face she couldn't be pregnant but she knew he didn't wear protection how could she be such a fool. She kept crying but finally a calm came over her as she sat in the cold water just staring at the wall realizing there was no turning back she lost everything that mattered to her. Daryl couldn't stand looking at her, and he was the reason she went on after Sophia died. She hated to admit it she had feelings for Daryl, and she was fooling herself he was never going to love her back no one loves her the only person that loved her unconditionally was Sophia, and she will never see her sweet girls face again. She laid her head on her knees as she shut her eyes , and just sat there not having any energy to do anything but feel sorry for herself.
Daryl and Alex moved Phillips body to the back of the house. Daryl wanted to burn his body, and watch it burn, and hope he goes to hell for what he did to Merle, and so many others but what he did to Carol was making him sick to his stomach. She let this man use her but she wanted to survive, and she was willing to do whatever it took to save herself, and that little girl she was protecting.
"Daryl we should bury him burning him will only attract walkers or others"
"Hell no he is burning he doesn't deserve a burial"
"Who is this guy Daryl, and is Carol ok"?
"No Carol is not ok this Scum killed my Brother, and his own people, and Carol let him" Daryl grabbed the shovel, and hit Phillip over, and over shocking Alex. Alex grabbed Daryl's arm but Daryl yelled.
"Don't touch me"
Alex put his hands up Daryl was losing it, and he knew he should let Daryl calm down before saying anything.
"Daryl go inside, and help Carol , I will bury this guy"
"I can't help her now"
"Why"?
"I should have been there Rick did this to her, Carol didn't deserve this"
"Carol is alive Daryl she killed this guy, and she has you she will be fine"
"You don't get it she let him do what he wanted to save herself, and your girl. Who would do that she knew she was sleeping with the Devil"
"Oh my God poor Carol"
Daryl felt like he couldn't breath he didn't know what to do. He didn't know if he should leave, and never look back, and let Carol stay here, and hope she can be happy. He knew if he walked away he would forever hate himself but how could he help her?
"Daryl if you are right, and she did whatever it took to keep them safe, I will be extremely grateful to her. She promised me she would keep my little girl safe, and she did but if you turn away from her now she will never recover from this"
"Rick is right she has changed"
Alex grabbed the shovel. "I will bury this guy, and than I will help her you can leave in the morning maybe she would be better off without you in her life.
Alex was making a hole while Daryl walked away, and went into the house as Alex watched, and hoped Daryl would do the right thing for Carol's sake, but Alex was being a little selfish, and he hoped Daryl left, and he would take care of her, and just maybe she would start to like him half as much as she loved Daryl.
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Post by melinda on Dec 4, 2013 21:22:49 GMT -6
aw no way, there is only one guy for Carol! I hope he steps up to the plate and shows her she's not alone and that he cares for her. I like the way this is going and hope for more, it is so addictive. I'm glad you kept writing them...it keeps me very motivated. thanks for updating you know I love it@!
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Post by jessie on Dec 5, 2013 22:03:45 GMT -6
Chapter 22
Daryl walked inside , and walked upstairs, and went to the room Carol was in, and was surprised she was not in there. He turned, and remembered the bathroom was next to her room he saw the door shut he walked over, and knocked calling out her name.
"Carol are you ok"?
Carol didn't answer so Daryl opened the door, and saw her in the tub. He knew he should give her privacy but he went in, and shut the door. He walked over, and Carol didn't look at him. He knelt down, and noticed her shaking, and he touched her shoulder making her jump.
"Sorry I called you didn't answer"
Carol wiped the tears from her eyes, and turned away from him.
"Carol talk to me"
'There is nothing to say I saw your face you are disappointed in my but join the club, I am disappointed in myself "
"I am not disappointed, I am angry that Rick didn't speak to the Counsel before sending you off to go through this"
"Daryl I have changed but I hated hurting my friends but they were dying, and I was watching them suffer, and I was so afraid it would spread, and I killed them"
"I know you did it for the Group, and I know you would feel guilty but Rick said you showed no remorse"
"Rick has no idea he wanted me to talk about Sophia, and what I did but I couldn't it hurt to much"
"Carol you are cold lets get you out of that tub before you get sick"
Daryl pulled the plug , and the water drained out. He put his hand out to her, and she got up as he grabbed a towel, and wrapped it around her. She got out of the tub as she dried herself than she walked over grabbing a sweat shirt out of the bag putting it on. She had a pair of leggings she put them on while Daryl watched.
Carol turned, "Thank you Daryl"
"For what"?
"I know you don't understand why I did what I did but I had to keep myself alive. You should have heard him he called me a Tramp, and a Prostitute, I have been with only one man my whole life, and that was Ed. I have thought about us for so long, and I knew the minute I let that man touch me you would never feel the same way about me. I went to a place in my head , and I don't even remember the act, I did the same thing when I was with Ed. You will never know how much his words hurt because he called me a Tramp, and a Prostitute, and after what I did I deserve what he said to me. He said I was willing to do anything to save myself, and he is right Daryl, I didn't want to die. How ironic is that because right this minute I wish I died with dignity instead I am left here standing in front of the only man I truly loved with all my heart feeling nothing but shame , and contempt for the person I have become". Carol turned, and ran out of the bathroom as Daryl watched but he knew he had to tell her how he felt because if he didn't he was not sure what Carol might do, because she was in so much pain, and part of him blamed himself because he should have told her how he felt so long ago, and just maybe they wouldn't be here now feeling so much pain, and regret.
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Post by melinda on Dec 6, 2013 19:50:37 GMT -6
aw you are making me feel soooo sooo bad for Carol! You can really feel her pain here, you are doing a great job with this. I want Daryl to be supportive but I also enjoy that he's in shock too, not every person knows how to react to trauma the right way initially. Very true to human nature and so in character for Daryl and Carol. I think the payoff will be just terrific. thank you for writing this, I love it and think this is just perfect.
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Post by jessie on Dec 6, 2013 21:21:13 GMT -6
Thank you for your lovely comments Melinda it really means a lot to me. Chapter 23 Carol ran to her room but she stopped looking at the ground where Phillip laid, and she felt so cold inside. She ran over grabbing the blanket, sheets off the bed, and threw them across the room. She fell on the bed putting her hands over her face trying to focus but her head was spinning. She kept hearing Phillips words, and she cried out telling him to shut up. She felt someone sit beside her holding her arms making her freak out but she opened her eyes seeing Daryl looking down at her. "Go away" "You think I look down on you, I don't Carol I admire you. I hate the thought of that Guy touching the only girl I have ever had feelings for. I am a fool , and all this is my fault. I was a coward scared to show you how I felt ever since that day by the water when I gave you that Cherokee Rose. I saw the love you had for your little girl, and I wanted to bring her home to you. I let you down but you never ever blamed me. You always took care of my needs, and the Groups, and we took advantage we should have know you were dying inside. I know you killed Karen and David, and you did what you did to protect us all , and Rick sent you away he was a fool" "Daryl" "Let me finish, I don't tell people how I feel, and if I stop I will never say it because I will close up again. I seen my Mother beat, and I knew she was a drunk, but I hated seeing her abused, and I would get beat helping her. I love my Big Brother Merle you all saw a side of him that was cruel, and uncaring but to me he was there for me growing up. Merle was cold because if you seen how my Father abused us it is no wonder Merle hated everyone because we both felt all the people around us let us down, and we trusted no one but each other. I saw Merle as a Walker, and I had to end it, and it was one of the hardest things I ever did. I almost let Merle kill me because I was tired, I was tired of the death, and violence, and knowing I would lose everyone I ever cared about. I came back to the Prison, and you were the first person I told, and that night I slept, but I saw you sitting on the floor reading one of those romance novels you got from Beth. I knew that moment, I had to go on for you but I still was a fool for not telling you how much I love you" Carol reached her hand to touch his face as Daryl put his hand over hers as she whispered. "You love me"? "Yes, I love you , and what happened here does not matter you did what you had to do to survive. I know life is short, and we both could die tomorrow but will you be my Girl" Carol smiled, "Daryl I love you but can you truly look at me the same after what I did"? "Can you stop what is done is done, and I look at you, and all I see is your beautiful eyes, and I promise you no one will hurt you ever again" "I love you for saying that but we both know our lives will never be the same from this day forward" Daryl smiled as he moved real close, and pulled her into his arms as he whispered, "It will be better now that I found you " Carol shut her eyes, and held him tight as she let all the stress of the day go, and she fell asleep in his arms.
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Post by melinda on Dec 8, 2013 17:15:05 GMT -6
awww this is so kinds of awesome! I love that he stepped up to the plate and will love her no matter what happens. I hope this isn't the end I am crazy about this story! Thanks and I hope you write more soon
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Post by jessie on Dec 8, 2013 20:40:50 GMT -6
Chapter 24
The next morning Daryl woke up, and Carol was still in his arms. She must have been exhausted she slept through the night. Daryl turned, and saw a little girl staring at him, and he didn't know what to say so he shook Carol.
'Wake up Carol"
Carol rubbed her eyes, and smiled but she saw Emma, and got off the bed , and knelt down asking her how she was.
"Who is he Mama"?
Daryl smiled, "She calls you Mama"?
"Emma this is Daryl my friend, Daryl this is Emma Alex's daughter"
Daryl smiled but the little girl pouted, "Is he going to take you away"?
Carol looked at Daryl who was staring at her waiting to see what she was going to say. Carol touched Emma's cheek, and told her to go downstairs, and she would be down in a minute to get breakfast ready.
"Daddy is making breakfast he told me to wake you"
"Ok we will be down in a few minutes ok Emma"
Emma walked out turning giving Daryl a look, and left.
"Wow that little girl has looks that could kill she hates me"
"She does not she is a child she is confused seeing a strange man in her Mama's bed"
"Carol she is not your little girl , and you didn't answer her question"
"I don't know what to say to her part of me wants to go back to the Prison to see the children, but part of me wants to stay here, and pretend my life is normal, and nothing that happened the last couple of weeks happened."
"You can not live in a bubble it will burst please say you will return with me, and if Rick doesn't accept you than he doesn't accept me either"
Carol walked over , and touched Daryl's chest, and whispered, "Can you give me a couple of days to think about it"?
"What will a couple of days do"?
"I am asking you to give me time please Daryl, I don't want to think about facing Rick right this minute because I can't promise you I will not attack him for what happened to me"
"Ok a couple of days will be fine but you know waiting to long will make it hard on Emma"
"I know Daryl but I think we better go down for breakfast Alex will think we are rude"
Daryl smiled, 'Maybe you should go have breakfast with them, I can eat later Emma don't like me much"
"Daryl for me, I bet Emma will love you just give her some time"
"You going down wearing that night shirt I don't want Alex seeing your sexy legs"
"Stop" Carol ran over getting dressed pulling on her pants, and her blouse as Daryl put on a clean shirt. They finished up, and they went downstairs to see Alex, and Emma.
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Post by Sanda on Dec 11, 2013 19:51:47 GMT -6
Great updates Jessie. :)I am so glad Alex and Daryl came back for Carol and Emma. :)I hate that the Governor raped Carol with Emma right in the next room before Alex and Daryl got to Carol and Emma to keep the both of them safe from the Governor. I am so proud of Carol for murdering the Governor before Alex and Daryl arrived. I hope that things work out for Craol snd Daryl in your awesome story now that carol has been raped by the Governor. :'(I hope that Daryl doesn't take Carol away from sweet little Emma. :)You are definetely a better writer than the curent writers are of the Walking Dead. You should definitely post this awesome story over at Fanfiction.net. I hope you update this awesome story again really soon.
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Post by melinda on Dec 11, 2013 20:57:30 GMT -6
this is wonderful, I love it...thanks for writing this is my favorite story of yours right now...it cheered me up I am having a bad day, thank you
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Post by jessie on Dec 14, 2013 21:12:25 GMT -6
Chapter 25
Days went by, and Daryl knew he had to go back the others needed him, but he needed Carol so he was going to have a long talk with her today, and he hoped she would come back with him. He walked into the kitchen, and he saw Carol sitting beside Emma reading her a book well Emma looked up at her with such a sweet smile on her face. Daryl was happy but sad because he knew Carol was such a big part of Emma's life, and she will be devastated if Carol left. He knew it was selfish of him but he needed Carol with him so if Alex, and Emma would not join them he hoped Carol would choose him.
Carol turned, "Daryl come join us Emma loves this book it is Little House on the Prairie. Sophia loved these books, I use to read them to her but I remember my Grandma reading these books to me. You must have watched the TV series it was so popular"
"No I am not a TV fan but can I talk to you Carol it is important"
"Can it wait until after I finish this chapter"?
"Carol please you can read to her a little later".
Carol turned to Emma, and asked her if she could go upstairs, and she would be up in a few minutes to read to her"
Emma gave Daryl a look but she walked over hugging Carol as she grabbed her book, and ran out of the kitchen, and upstairs.
Carol grabbed the 2 glasses, and brought them to the sink, but Daryl walked up behind her, and whispered.
"Carol it is time our friends need us to go home"
Carol wiped the tears from her eyes as she turned, and Daryl knew she was not coming with him.
'Daryl I can't go back"
"Hell you can't get your things ready we are leaving today"
"No I am not going back, I am not welcome there anymore"
"Because of Rick, I don't care what that " Carol moved close, and whispered, "I know you have to go back, and I completely understand but I am needed here , I can't leave Emma"
"But you can give up on me"
"Never you will always be a part of my life but I can't go back there. You were not there, and you didn't hear what Rick said to me. He said I was not welcome there, and that he didn't trust me with his kids. I would have done anything for those kids for all of you, and he threw me away like I meant nothing to him, and the Group"
"He does not speak for all of us, I can't stand the thought of being there without you"
"Daryl please understand I can never forgive Rick because every time I would look at him, I will think of what happened here with Phillip, and I will hurt him if he says one rude thing to me, and that is a promise"
I will talk to Rick he will stay away from you, and I promise you if you want to leave at anytime I will leave with you"
"Daryl you know you can't leave them not even for me"
Daryl was angry he walked out of the kitchen, and upstairs to their room. He grabbed his bag , and was shoving his things in but Carol walked over touching his arm.
"Daryl please don't leave here angry"
"Shut up stay here, and shack up with your fantasy life, but remember one day this place will be attacked by walkers, and you will die here with your new boyfriend, and his kid. She is not Sophia Carol your girl is dead"
Carol lost it, and smacked Daryl shocking herself but she was shaking with anger.
"I know she is not my Sophia how dare you say that to me. Leave Daryl , and forget about me because I will forget about you". She turned, and ran out of the room, and into the washroom. Daryl grabbed his bag, and walked out of the room, and ran downstairs. He went outside, and Alex was fixing the stairs out front, and he smiled when Daryl came storming down the stairs.
'Great I was just about to ask you if you wanted to help me with this"
"No I am leaving" Daryl was walking away when Alex ran over grabbing his arm, and Daryl turned almost hitting him but Alex put his hands up.
"Ok go but why are you leaving I thought you, and Carol were getting along great"?
"Hell she wants to live her with you, and your Kid you both can have her who needs her"
"Don't leave like this it will kill her Daryl"
"Good I hope it hurts her , and tell her I pitied her but not anymore Rick is right she has changed, and she is not part of our group anymore". Daryl was walking away, but he felt tears come to his eyes but he didn't look back. Alex watched as he disappeared he looked at the house, and he walked up the steps to check on Carol, and Emma. He knew Carol loved Daryl, and he could only imagine what she was going through at this moment.
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