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Post by Sanda on Oct 21, 2011 14:10:04 GMT -6
Great update Jessie. I am glad that Jack and Ennis bonded in this chapter. I feel horrible for Alma and girls but I hope that Jack and Ennis will be able to find away to stay together. Please update this awesome story again soon.
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Post by jessie on Dec 12, 2011 23:09:43 GMT -6
Chapter 6
Ennis was sitting by the fire when Jack yelled out of the tent. "Coming to bed Ennis it is cold out there". Ennis smiled, "Yeah but I'm by the fire"
"Yeah you are but the fire in here is better" Ennis laughed as he got up walking over to the tent. He went inside shutting it , he sat beside Jack touching his face.
"What were you thinking about"?
"Oh nothing really just everything mostly my girls, and you"
"Ennis I don't expect you to walk away, I was wrong"
"I would never walk away, I love Alma but you have my heart. My girls mean the world to me, and I would never let them down, I'm so sorry Jack"
"I know Ennis, but sometimes you have to make yourself happy"
"Jack you think you could leave your family, and come, and live with me in some trailer, and have the town hate us"
"Ennis I'm getting divorced, she said she knew I was not in love with her. I tried but Lureen's married me really to get away from her family. I married to pretend I was someone I wasn't, but every waking moment, I dream of you, and only you. I love my little boy Bobby, he has dyslexia but Lureen won't face the fact, so I can't do anything about it. I let my boy down, but maybe he is better off without me"
"Jack your boy needs you , why would you give up your rights"
"You don't know Lureen, and her family they suck the life out of me. I couldn't breath anymore, I had to leave or I might have killed her Father, than what would you do"?
Ennis smiled, "I would have never believed someone like you could hurt anyone"
"Ennis have you been with other men"?
Ennis pulled away, "No I didn't know I was capable of this until I met you"
"I made you like men is that what your saying"?
"I'm just saying I never felt this way, it was you, it was wild, and scary"
Jack pulled Ennis close, "You mean I put a spell on you"?
"Yeah you could say that" Ennis touched Jack's lips, "Have you been with other men"?
"What'?
"Men have you slept with other men"?
"Ennis don't ask that, what I do when we are apart shouldn't matter"
Ennis stood up, "You slept with other men"?
"Yes mostly prostitutes, I didn't have you, and I wasn't getting anything from my wife, so I went to Mexico, and it was meaningless, but it was satisfying for the time being"
Ennis screamed, "You are sick Jack, God I thought what we had was special" Ennis walked out standing by the fire. Jack grabbed his shirt putting it on.
"Ennis you are special, but what am I suppose to do"?
"Wait for me, I should be all you want"
"Really what about Alma you have sex with her to shut her up. I'm suppose to wait 9 months of the year for human touch"
"Do what you want Jack, you obviously do"?
"Ennis come on lets go to bed"
"Go to bed Jack, I will come in when I'm ready"
Jack walked over, "Come on, I'm sorry I upset you"
Ennis turned, "Is this all just sex to you Jack, it was more to me"
"I love you Ennis, the others don't mean anything to me"
"It means a lot to me, I don't know you Jack". Ennis walked away, and Jack kicked some rocks, he was so angry. Why did he tell Ennis the truth, maybe he was right, he was wrong sleeping around with male prostitutes, just to get through his lonely nights. He sat down looking at the fire, he screamed out, "Ennis I'm so sorry".
Ennis was walking hearing Jack yell out. He was about to go back, but he needed to be alone to think, so he kept walking.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 13, 2011 10:53:12 GMT -6
oh this is getting so good, I dont know who to feel sorry for, you make them both rootable. please update soon, I really enjoy this
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Post by jessie on Dec 13, 2011 16:52:50 GMT -6
Chapter 7
Ennis was sitting by a tree, just staring ahead he didn't even realize Jack walked over to him.
"Ennis come back to the camp it is cold out"
"Am I selfish Jack expecting you to be mine, than I leave you for months, expecting you to be faithful"
"Your not wrong but I'm not strong like you. I hurt so bad knowing your with Alma, and I'm sitting in some hotel room thinking about us. I pray my boy Bobby doesn't turn out like me, he is such a sweet little guy. Lureen won't let me see him, she says I'm a bad role model, I am God I hate myself"
Ennis touched his shoulder, "She has no right to keep you from your boy"
"Really you hate me I go to Mexico , and have sex with male prostitutes because when I leave, I never see those men again. I will say I feel sick after, but I put everything out of my mind except for the fact someone is loving me, and that is sick I have to pay for it"
"God Jack stop I feel bad enough"
"I will stop, I will never be with anyone ever again, I will wait for you Ennis. I can't lose what we have, I'm so sorry" Ennis touched his face, "You don't need prostitutes Jack, and your a good man Lureen is wrong, fight to see little Bobby" Jack stood up, "No he is better off without me, your a great Father, but I'm not"
Ennis stood up walking over to Jack, "You are a good man, I hate you turn to other men, but I understand"
"You do I don't"
"I'm selfish, I stay with Alma living a lie, but I'm a great Dad. I would die for my girls, I don't want people calling their Daddy sick names. They love me, I hate that I can't be who I want to be because of people, and their twisted minds"
Jack moved close, "We could do this together. I'm sure your girls would understand, and Alma could be with someone that would treat her right. You are not a good husband, you know it Ennis"
"I know but I can't come out, you know what the town people will say, and maybe do"
"OK we will not think about that right now, lets go back to camp." Jack took his hand as Ennis, and him walked back. Jack smiled, "Ennis you are scary when your angry"
"I know but I think I already knew you were seeing other men. I hate it, but maybe if you continue please don't tell me. I pray you are careful, because you could get sick"
"I use protection but it is over, I will never do it again"
Ennis smiled as he moved close bringing his lips over Jack's. Jack wrapped his arms around his waist, as they kissed so tenderly, but passionately. Jack lifted Ennis's shirt than started to unbutton it. Ennis smiled, "What are you doing"?
"Well I thought we would make up properly"
"Jack"
"Ennis please don't push me away it will kill me". Ennis pulled Jack close as they kissed, than Jack whispered, "Lets go in the tent".
Ennis and Jack went in, they sat on the sleeping blanket, and stared into each others eyes. Ennis was so in love with Jack, his eyes were drawing him in, he never needed or wanted anyone like he wanted Jack at this moment. He laid Jack back as he moved over him kissing him as Jack wrapped his arms around Ennis. They touched, and caressed each other than they totally gave themselves to each other. They pulled the sleeping blanket over them , they laid naked in each others arms. They knew the world around them didn't understand what they felt, but at the moment, all that mattered was they were together, and they loved each other so much.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 13, 2011 18:28:23 GMT -6
great update, I am so glad they made up, this is a wonderful story.
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Post by Sanda on Dec 19, 2011 10:10:59 GMT -6
Great updatres Jessie. I feel horrible for both Jack and Ennis in your story becuase they have to live a lie to be together. I am glad that Jack and Ennis made up in your story.
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Post by jessie on Sept 29, 2013 16:11:42 GMT -6
Chapter 8
Ennis woke up Jack was holding on to him like he would disappear before he woke up. Ennis moved Jack's hand, and he got up, and went outside, and was standing in the cool night air it was chilly but it felt good against his skin. He hated thinking he was hurting Alma, but at the same time he was hurting Jack what kind of man was he? He had to make his choice, and he had to make it soon. He couldn't keep stringing Jack along but he knew if he walked away, and never seen Jack again he would regret it until the day he died. He wished he was strong , but he was still that small child that watched as those men beat those two men up. He remembered that night he went home, and he couldn't stop shaking. He couldn't get the screams of the men out of his head. They killed them for no reason other than they were different, and they loved each other.
Ennis suddenly felt ill all the memories came flashing back, and he ran over to a tree, and was sick several times. He leaned against the tree, and he felt so angry that his Father of all people took him there to see that horrible crime. He remembered thinking the men would go to jail but they never did they got away with it like the two men had no rights , it was like they didn't even have a right to live, and it angered Ennis so much. He remembered seeing their family members, and none of them even asked what happened. The Police chalked the whole disappearance up as two men living a sin decided to leave town before they shamed their families anymore than they already have. Ennis couldn't believe their own families turned their backs on them knowing full well they were murdered, and they didn't run away. Ennis remembered his Father telling him over, and over it was a sin, and what he saw was justice they were sick, and they needed to go away because no one should have to live around people like that.
Ennis yelled out, 'Dad you would be real proud of me today, I am exactly like the men you made me watch die. I am exactly what you hated about those men, and I wish you were here to see this. I hate you Dad how could you do that to me"?Ennis couldn't catch his breath the memories were coming back it was making him crazy. Jack woke up when he heard Ennis yelling he grabbed his pants, and put them on. He ran out of the tent , and saw Ennis over by the tree.
"Ennis my God what is wrong"?
"No one will accept up Jack no one, and I can't watch you die because you love me"
"You will not watch me die Ennis you are talking crazy"
"They kill people like us we are a dirty little secret, I know I have always had feelings for men, but I made myself hang out with ladies, and eventually I thought maybe I was not gay after all"
"Being gay is not a disease Ennis we were born this way"
"Really that is not what the church says we are sinners, and we should die, and no one will care"
"Ok I know your Dad made you watch those two men die so many years ago. I think it was sick, and what he did to you was horrible but that was almost 20 years ago or more"
"Nothing has changed do you see people like us hanging out in bars or going out to dinner no you don't. Maybe in Mexico they are running around free but not here, and I am scared to death someone would hurt you , and I couldn't live with that"
"You really think we are the only ones around here that are gay are you serious Ennis"
"I'm sure there is others but they are in hiding"
"I don't want to hide anymore we have to make a change, and if we hide away like cowards it will never happen"
"You really believe you can live with not knowing if someone will drag us out of our home, and beat us to death"
"If it happens I would know I did everything in my power to be with the only man I love"
"You read to many romance novels Jack"
Jack smiled, "No I am tired of hiding away like a coward who will not stand up to anyone that will not let me live the life I deserve"
"I wish I was as strong as you Jack I really do"
"We can do this together Ennis just give us a chance"
Ennis stared at Jack he was not sure what to think but he knew Jack was right he had to stand up for his rights or he would forever be miserable.
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Post by Sanda on Sept 29, 2013 16:54:17 GMT -6
Great update Jessie. I feel bad for both Jack and Ennis in this story. Ennis's dad was awful making his son Ennis watch gay people being killed. I don't blame Ennis for hating his father becuase of that. I hope things work out for Jack and Ennis when they take their relationship public. I hope you update this awesome story again really soon.
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Post by melinda on Sept 29, 2013 18:45:18 GMT -6
great update, so glad you're continuing with this. I hope they are able to overcome their obstacles
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Post by jessie on Sept 18, 2014 21:37:16 GMT -6
Chapter 9
They both walked over to the fire pit, and Jack was making them both some coffee. Ennis was still quiet his head hurt because he knew one way or another he was going to hurt someone. If he went back to Alma and pretended that was the life he wanted he was going to hurt her, and the girls. If he stayed with Jack he knew Alma and the girls would be hurt and treated different by the people in their town.
"Ennis here is your coffee hope it is strong enough"
"Thanks"
"Ennis we have two days left here lets make the best of it. I know you will have to go back and tell your Wife what is going on. I know she will be hurt, and I hate that is going to happen but in the long run she should find someone that loves her completely. I know you love her but not how she deserves. I know your daughters will be upset but they are your girls, and they will always love you"
Ennis smiled, "You really think everything will be ok."
"It has to be as long as we are together everything will be ok"
"I wish I had your confidence Jack"
"Ennis drink your coffee would you like some beans for breakfast"?
"No I was just sick I can't eat"
"How about you stay here while I go out to herd the sheep"
Ennis smiled normally he liked to herd the sheep but today he would rather let Jack do it. He hoped the next two days went slow because going home was not something he wanted to do at the moment. He wanted to see his girls but seeing Alma was going to hurt, and he knew life was going to change once he told anyone about what happened up here with Jack.
Jack got up, "I will see you tonight you sure you are ok"
"I am fine don't worry about me"
Jack walked over to grab his bag than he walked over to the horse, and got on. He turned seeing Ennis looking at his coffee cup, and Jack just saw how conflicted Ennis was, and part of him felt it was his fault. Jack rode off as Ennis watched, and Jack prayed Ennis found the courage to do what was best for him, and not what is best for his family. Jack knew he was being selfish but Ennis staying in a marriage he was not truly happy being in was so wrong.
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Post by Sanda on Sept 18, 2014 22:12:17 GMT -6
Great update Jessie. I feel sorry for Ennis in this story because he is torn between Jack and his wife Alma and their family. I hope things work out for Jack and Ennis on this story because they so perfect for each other and they belong together forever. I hope you update this awesome story again really soon.
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Post by melinda on Dec 20, 2014 5:31:34 GMT -6
love that you are continuing this. it is a very wonderful story, I was happy to read it from the beginning. please continue, you are a wonderful writer!
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