Words you would love to take back

[jessie]

A short story with Sue Ellen, and JR, and the family.

Words you would love to take back

Sue Ellen was drinking again she was sober for 6 months, but she found out JR was having another fling, and it drove her over the edge. She hated that she was weak, and she knew walking away would have been better, but she was not strong enough yet. She knew JR would fight for John Ross, and she was not willing to let him go, and be raised by JR all alone. She was not the Mother he needed but she loved him, but she knew drinking was keeping her from being the Mother she should be.

It was a Monday morning Sue Ellen drank the night before, and woke up with a hangover. JR came in at 3am, and got in bed, and in the morning called her horrid names that made her cold inside. She was a lush, and a unfit Mother thanks to him. She knew she couldn't blame him he didn't put the bottle in her hand this time but he has in the past. She swore he loved when she drank it made him happy thinking he could use it against her. That alone should have gave her power to stop but it didn't. She also knew he hated feeling like a failure she knew he didn't want to throw her off Southfork, and have a scandal. She was sitting up about to get up when JR walked over telling her she should not come down to breakfast.

"Everyone can see you were boozing it up last night"

"Maybe I was JR, but what were you doing"?

"Enough Sue Ellen you are a disgrace, you know what why don't you get in your car, and drive it off a cliff, but try not to kill anyone else like you killed Mickey"

Sue Ellen's eyes fill up with tears, that was the cruelest thing he has ever said to her. She got up running into the bathroom, and locked the door. JR sat on the bed, and knew he took it to far, that was cruel even for him. He was tired he would talk to her after work he didn't have the strength to fight her now. He walked out of the room, and went downstairs, and told the family she was not feeling well. They ate, and JR grabbed his briefcase, and said he would drive John Ross, and Christopher to school.

Later that morning.

Sue Ellen had a couple of drinks trying to drown out what JR said to her. She walked outside by the pool, everyone was out , the only ones home were Lucy, and Sue Ellen, and the house staff. Sue Ellen was drinking her vodka by the pool when Lucy walked out, and saw her.

"Sue Ellen what are you doing drinking at 9am"?

"Why are you not at school"?

"Day off if it is any of your business"

"Why I'm drinking is none of yours"

"I hate JR Sue Ellen but you truly are a loser"

"Shut up Lucy"

"You never learn do you he will never change. You both don't deserve to be parents. Maybe you will drown yourself, and John Ross will be like me no Mother, he would be better off". Lucy walked away leaving Sue Ellen stunned. She wanted to cry she was frozen in anger, everyone in this family were cruel, and she hated them all. She turned to throw her glass, but slipped on some water by the side of the pool, and fell hitting her head, and she went right in the pool. She was unconscious as she went in, and couldn't fight to get out. She was floating face down for minutes when Lucy came back out to say something. She saw Sue Ellen, and screamed for Raoul to help her. Lucy jumped in the pool, and turned Sue Ellen around, as Raoul jumped in the pool helping Lucy get her out. Teresa came out he told her to call 911, she ran in the house. Lucy, and Raoul tried to do CPR, they got water out of her chest, and she started to breath again, but she did not wake up. Lucy remembered her words, and wished she could take it back, she wanted Sue Ellen to grow up, and start being a Mother, she knew John Ross loved her, and if she died a part of John Ross would to. She touched Sue Ellen's face, and whispered, "I'm so sorry Sue Ellen, please come back, John Ross needs you"

[Sanda]

Great start to your new story Jessie. Please let Sue Ellen be ok.

[melindajo2000]

great start, nice to see Sue Ellen and JR stories again, love them

[jessie]

Chapter 2

The Paramedics came they worked on Sue Ellen, they got her stable, they got her in the ambulance, and rushed her to the hospital.

Lucy ran into the house, and called , Ewing Oil, and asked for JR, or Bobby. They were in a meeting with Marilee, and Jordan, but Sly put Lucy through when she said it was an emergency.

" Lucy what is the matter"?

'JR something horrible happened Sue Ellen is on the way to the hospital. She hit her head, and fell in the pool, she would not wake up. It is really bad, you should go to the hospital. I will be there once Grandma , and Grandpa get home. They went to the Doctors."

"She is going to be OK Lucy"?

"I don't know JR, they asked me how long she was under the water, but I don't know"

"God OK I will go to the hospital" JR hung up saying he had to go grabbing his coat. Bobby grabbed his arm asking him what was the matter?

"Sue Ellen fell she hit her head, and somehow was found in the pool. She was rushed to the hospital but Lucy doesn't know how bad she is"

"God I'm coming with you I will drive"

"She has to be OK Bobby"

"I'm sure she will be but lets go". They both ran out, and Bobby drove to the hospital. They ran inside asking where she was, and they told her she was in emergency surgery. She had some bleeding on the brain that had to be operated on right away. They went to the waiting area, and JR felt ill. He remembered all the horrible things he said to her, and all the horrible things he did to her. He put his hands over his face, and Bobby touched his shoulder.

"JR she will be fine, she is strong"

" Really Bobby she is not strong, I was so mean this morning, but she made me angry"

'Why'?

"She is drinking again how many times do I have to deal with that"?

" I hate when she drinks but God JR, when are you going to treat her like a wife. You run around town sleeping around, and she knows about it , how do you think she feels about that"?

"Like she is a Angel Bobby she has cheated too"

"Yeah I know you both need to give up on each other"

"Nice Bobby I thought you liked Sue Ellen should I kick her to the curb , or should I wait to see if she survives first"

"I think you need to grow up, and if you continue with the cheating, than let her go"

"She was free to walk, but she will not take John Ross from me again"

"She loves John Ross JR"

"So do I , and I love her too, but we never get it right"

"She adores you JR, I don't get you, I would love to have a wife at home waiting for me. I lost Pam, but you still have Sue Ellen, and you don't even realize how lucky you are"

"She is amazing, but she drives me crazy sometimes"

"Oh you are a ball of sunshine in her eyes I'm sure"

"Bobby what if I lose her"?

"That is in God's hands, but I pray we don't "

Bobby touched his shoulder as JR sat back saying a silent prayer in his head. He has not gone to church a lot in the last few years, but he hoped God would hear his prayer to save Sue Ellen if not for him for their son John Ross.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. Please let Sue Ellen be ok. I hope that she doesn't die and that she comes back to JR and John Ross.

[jessie]

Chapter 3

Lucy came into the hospital with Pam, and walked over to JR, and Bobby.

"How is Sue Ellen"? Pam asked, JR walked away, Bobby told them there is no news yet. She was in surgery, there was bleeding on the brain. Lucy sat down, and whispered, " This is all my fault"

Bobby was confused, and Pam told him she would explain later.

"Bobby how is JR taking all this"?

"Not great he is blaming himself too"

Lucy got up, " Well he is to blame too, God why didn't she walk away when she had a chance"?

"Lucy you are acting strange stop it JR does not need this right now"

"Oh really Bobby do you think Sue Ellen would agree"?

"JR was not home when she got hurt it was a accident"

Lucy sat down, Pam sat beside her as Bobby walked down the hall to stay with JR.

"Bobby what is taking so long"?

"It has been 2 hours they said it could be 3 hours so stop worrying"

"Bobby they are doing brain surgery that is scary so don't tell me not to worry "

"OK lets go sit down, would you like a coffee"?

"No a bourbon would be better"

"JR you can't drink here so a coffee will do" . JR said OK, he sat down, and Bobby walked down the hall, Lucy and Pam said they would have a coffee too.

JR was looking at the doors when Sue Ellen's Doctor came out, and walked over to JR.

"Please tell me she is going to be OK"?

"The surgery went well but the damage was more severe than we thought. She is out right now basically in a coma, it could be a few hours or days, or even longer before we will know if the surgery was a success. We stopped the bleeding, but we will not no if there is going to be any memory loss due to the injury."

"Memory loss is that likely"?

"Yes something it can be for a short period, or it could be permanent"?

"You have to prepare yourself, it could be permanent, but she may have no memory loss, but I have to give you all the scenarios just in case. She is healing, so her being in a coma right now is good for her recovery. She will need her family more than ever after she wakes up, but you need to realize there is a possibility she may not remember the injury or her past"

"Thank you Dr. Stewart"

"I will let you in to see her, but only 1 visitor at a time. She will not know you are here so it would be wise if you go home, and rest, and we will call you if there is any changes"

"I will not leave her, if she wakes up, and no one is here she will be scared"

"That is fine I can make arrangements, I will get her settled, than you can go in to see her"

The Doctor walked away, Lucy , and Pam walked over.

"JR what did he say"?

"She is in a coma, the surgery went OK, but she had severe bleeding. They don't know what the future holds she could have memory loss, or she could come out of it, and be fine"

"Memory loss would be perfect, she could forget all about the Ewing's, and you". Lucy says

"Lucy Ewing enough" Pam scolded her, Lucy sat down, and JR sat across from her.

"Come on you two Sue Ellen needs us all, but if you keep this up, she will not fight to come back to us"

Lucy and JR look at Pam, as Bobby came back with the coffee, and Pam told him what the Doctor said to JR.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. Poor Sue Ellen. Please let Sue Ellen be ok and let her come out of her coma and come back to JR, John Ross, Bobby, Pam, and Lucy. Also please don't let Sue Ellen die or have memory loss.

[melindajo2000]

this is so awesome Jessie

[jessie]

Chapter 4

3 days later

JR has been at the hospital , but it was starting to get to him. He really was starting to feel he lost her, and he was being punished for all the bad stuff he has done to her , and others. He hated going home, he hated seeing John Ross's disappointed face everything he cried for his Mommy. JR stood up walking over taking one of her hands, and kissed it.

" Sugar you have scared me enough open those big brown eyes, and tell me you will not tolerate me hurting you anymore. I will do anything just to see your eyes open. John Ross needs his Ma Ma, we both have been so involved in hurting each other, that he has suffered, but we are lucky he loves us flaws, and all. I think maybe we can be a family, I want to try, and I swear I will not say hurtful things like I did that morning. I saw that I hurt you, and I hate myself for it. Sugar please open your eyes, I need you". He watched her hoping for some kind of movement, or response, but there was nothing. He wanted to shake her, and he knew that was evil, but he wanted her to come back to them. He walked to the window looking out when someone came into the room.

JR turned around seeing Lucy, he turned back to the window not saying a word.

"JR has there been any change"?

"No she is still the same I don't think she is coming back"

'Give her time the Doctors say it could change, and she may come back"

"Lucy maybe she doesn't want to come back why would she"?

"For John Ross, you don't deserve her but he does"

"Really Lucy you were cruel to her minutes before this happened this might be your fault"

"You are cruel JR but I know it could be my fault. I was so angry seeing her drinking, and feeling sorry for herself when she has a little boy who needs his Mother. You both have a wonderful child, but you both fight, and drink, and play around while that little boy is at home wondering where Mommy, and Daddy is. He needs you JR, go home, I will spend the night with Sue Ellen"

"You like I would trust you to stay here for her"

"I said I would, and I will go home John Ross has not been eating, go home, and be there for him"

"Lucy call me if there is any change"

"I will " JR walked over kissing Sue Ellen on the cheek, and touched her forehead as he whispered. "Sugar I'm going home to see John Ross, but I will be back soon. Lucy is here she promised to take care of you. I know me, and Lucy are probably two people you would like to tell off, but we are here, and we want you to wake up. " JR grabbed his coat, and walked out of the room, leaving Lucy there alone.

Lucy sat down she was quiet for a few moments, but than she finally spoke.

"Sue Ellen if you die I will never forgive myself. I really didn't mean what I said, I was just angry. I thought saying what I did you might realize you were hurting John Ross too. He loves you Sue Ellen you have done something right. I know what it is like not having my Mom with me. My Mom is alive but it hurts so much knowing she didn't fight hard enough to keep me. You let JR hurt you over, and over, and I don't get it. I do know that man loves you, I have seen what this is doing to him. I know I deserve to feel horrible, and so does JR, but enough is enough. Will you please wake up, and tell us off, I can take it promise."

Lucy felt tears come to her eyes as Sue Ellen laid still, and Lucy stared at her willing her to move, but nothing happened, and Lucy felt tears roll down her face, she always thought she hated Sue Ellen but at this moment she realized she didn't, and she never prayed much but she prayed that God would bring her back to the family, but especially John Ross.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. Poor JR, Lucy, and John Ross. I hope that Sue Ellen wakes up soon and comes back to her family.

[jessie]

Chapter 5

It was 2 weeks later, and Sue Ellen was still in a coma, and JR, and the family would take turns going to see her. JR was losing hope, and John Ross was withdrawing into himself, and JR did everything in his power to try to make him happy. He would cry at night he wanted his Mom to tuck him in, and JR actually got angry one night yelling at him. He felt bad when John Ross grabbed his favourite teddy bear, and turned away from him. He stopped crying but JR felt horrible, and he laid in bed beside John Ross holding him the whole night. JR hated going to sleep he had the worst nightmares mostly Sue Ellen dying, and him having to tell his son, it was a recurring nightmare that he knew might come true. The next day John Ross got up, and once again asked if his Mommy was going to come home today. JR had to tell him that she was still very sick, but she loved him, and would come home soon, but he knew he may be lying to his son, and he hated doing it, but he couldn't tell him the truth. Lucy would help out with John Ross she was actually a God send to JR she would spend hours with Sue Ellen, and than come home, and be with John Ross giving JR time to be with Sue Ellen.

JR was leaving to go to work when Miss Ellie walked over to JR, and said.

"JR I was thinking John Ross has been missing his Ma Ma so much maybe taking him to the hospital to see her would be a good thing"

"No Ma Ma John Ross would be heartbroken if she didn't talk to him he is a child how could you suggest it"

"Well we all have been there, and Sue Ellen is not responding if she hears her sons voice it just might bring her out of it"

"You know that is not true she is in a coma, and she may never come out of it, and it is all my fault. I will not allow my son to see his Ma Ma like that, I'm sorry I have to go to work".

JR walked to his car, and got in, but Miss Ellie felt in her heart he was wrong. She was going to go against his wishes, and take John Ross to see his Ma Ma, and just maybe it would bring Sue Ellen back to them. She walked into the house, and went upstairs to get John Ross ready.

Miss Ellie went into John Ross's room , and found Lucy sitting on his bed reading to him.

"Lucy I have to get John Ross ready to see his Ma Ma"

"What your taking him to the hospital is that a good idea Grandma"?

"I don't know probably not but he needs to see his Mom, and I can't stand seeing her like this. She might hear her sweet boys voice, and it will give her something to live for. I truly believe she is in this coma because she feels she has nothing to live for"

Lucy touched John Ross's cheek, "You want to see your Mom, but I have to tell you something really important John Ross"

"OK"

"Your Mommy is sleeping, and you can talk to her all you want, but she might not wake up Sweetie. She is so tired, but hearing your voice might make her feel so much better"

John Ross smiled , "Mommy is like Sleeping Beauty"

"Yes like that but I'm not sure a kiss will wake her up right now Sweetie"

John Ross smiled jumping off the bed, Miss Ellie touched his shoulder, and she helped him change while Lucy sat watching hoping this was not a big mistake.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. Poor John Ross. I feel so bad for John Ross in this story. I hope that Sue Ellen wakes up really soon and comes back to her family. I hope that Sue Ellen wakes up when she hears John Ross's voice when Lucy and Miss Ellie take him to the hospital to see her.

[melindajo2000]

awesome i love this,. your jr and se stories are wonderful