Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 29, 2011 12:32:23 GMT -6
Todd was back. Or at least Blair thought he was. She was so confused, as was everyone else. There was no way he could be Todd, Todd was alive and well and living in Llanview for years. Everyone knew that. This man had to be an imposter. But there was something about that kiss, and the way he looked at her, and in her heart she knew the truth. Todd was back, and there was only one man that she had given her heart too all those years ago. There was one Todd Manning, and that man had come back to the woman who truly loved him.
Blair had so many questions, but in a way, she didn’t need them answered, not now. Not after that kiss. After that, maybe in her head she still had doubts and questions but her feelings told her everything she needed to know. Somehow she knew. She couldn’t explain it, but she knew that there was something not quite right about that other man. Yet she let him into her life and her children’s lives, and she was beginning to hate herself for it. She had no choice. When she thought Todd was dead she had grieved and had grabbed onto the first opportunity to welcome him back into their lives. How she would ever explain that to Todd, she would never know. The Todd Manning she knew would never forgive that. But he still wanted her. She could just tell. And the thought filled her mind with endless possibilities, and it chilled her to the bone.
Somehow, as if reading her mind as he always did, Todd showed up at her door. He didn’t knock- he never did. He was used to taking what was his, and it was clear that he considered Blair his. Some things would never change.
“Blair,” he said simply.
She couldn’t help it, her eyes focused on the familiar scar on his face. He could sense it but said nothing.
“What do you want Todd?” she said coolly, her voice betraying her.
“What do you think I want? I want my family back. I want what’s mine. I think I deserve that.”
“You can’t just come back into our lives thinking that nothing’s changed. Everything has changed.”
“Why not? Do you think that I wanted this? Do you think I wanted what happened to me to happen?”
Blair looked at him, afraid of the answer. “What …what happened?”
“Does it matter?”
“It does matter. A lot of things happened. You’re a grandfather now.”
Todd’s eyes widened with rage. “You mean… Starr?! I’ll kill the son a gun. Who is he?” He started to pace the room, and Blair did not doubt his words.
Blair grabbed him. “No, you can’t do that. I’m not telling you.”
“Blair you tell me who it is or I swear to…”
“You swear you’ll what, you’ll disappear again? You’ll disappoint your kids like you have time and time again?”
.
Now it was Todd’s turn to grab Blair. “You listen to me. I did not choose to do this to my kids! I did not walk away from them. I would never leave my kids! Do you understand me?” He shook her until he saw the fear in her eyes, then he let her go. “I’m … I’m sorry Blair. Do you want me to go.”
“No. Don’t go. Stay.” She looked into the eyes and saw the hurt, and she couldn’t help herself. She saw the man that she knew and always loved. Always. Despite her own feelings of hurt and betrayal she couldn’t help herself. She gave in to those feelings and kissed him, catching them both by surprise. Todd did not hesitate- he always was a man of opportunity. He reached over and grabbed her by the back of her head and kissed bher back, with as much passion of a man of a mysterious past could. As much as Blair hated herself for it, she willingly gave in to his strength, and allowed herself to be taken. Todd grabbed her, touched her, Reaching under her shirt, he fumbled with her shirt while at the same time leaning against her until she fell against the couch, kissing her the entire time. Blair returned the favor, moving her hand underneath his shirt, feeling the familiarity of his chest. It had been so long, but this was definitely Todd. Her Todd.
.
After they dressed, Blair ran her fingers through his hair. Sometimes she really missed his long hair, but she knew that for him, it was a painful reminder of his past. They had connected, and he had definitely left no doubt that he was her man and always would be. Let the doubters doubt. She knew with no uncertainty that Todd Manning was back, and needed no blood test to tell her anything else.
“Blair..” Todd started.
“Yes?”
“Thanks,” Todd mumbled. “I..”
“Ssh,” she placed her finger on his lips, knowing how uncomfortable he was with words of feelings. She knew how he felt, and she knew everything she needed to know. Todd was back, and that was enough for her.
tbc
Blair had so many questions, but in a way, she didn’t need them answered, not now. Not after that kiss. After that, maybe in her head she still had doubts and questions but her feelings told her everything she needed to know. Somehow she knew. She couldn’t explain it, but she knew that there was something not quite right about that other man. Yet she let him into her life and her children’s lives, and she was beginning to hate herself for it. She had no choice. When she thought Todd was dead she had grieved and had grabbed onto the first opportunity to welcome him back into their lives. How she would ever explain that to Todd, she would never know. The Todd Manning she knew would never forgive that. But he still wanted her. She could just tell. And the thought filled her mind with endless possibilities, and it chilled her to the bone.
Somehow, as if reading her mind as he always did, Todd showed up at her door. He didn’t knock- he never did. He was used to taking what was his, and it was clear that he considered Blair his. Some things would never change.
“Blair,” he said simply.
She couldn’t help it, her eyes focused on the familiar scar on his face. He could sense it but said nothing.
“What do you want Todd?” she said coolly, her voice betraying her.
“What do you think I want? I want my family back. I want what’s mine. I think I deserve that.”
“You can’t just come back into our lives thinking that nothing’s changed. Everything has changed.”
“Why not? Do you think that I wanted this? Do you think I wanted what happened to me to happen?”
Blair looked at him, afraid of the answer. “What …what happened?”
“Does it matter?”
“It does matter. A lot of things happened. You’re a grandfather now.”
Todd’s eyes widened with rage. “You mean… Starr?! I’ll kill the son a gun. Who is he?” He started to pace the room, and Blair did not doubt his words.
Blair grabbed him. “No, you can’t do that. I’m not telling you.”
“Blair you tell me who it is or I swear to…”
“You swear you’ll what, you’ll disappear again? You’ll disappoint your kids like you have time and time again?”
.
Now it was Todd’s turn to grab Blair. “You listen to me. I did not choose to do this to my kids! I did not walk away from them. I would never leave my kids! Do you understand me?” He shook her until he saw the fear in her eyes, then he let her go. “I’m … I’m sorry Blair. Do you want me to go.”
“No. Don’t go. Stay.” She looked into the eyes and saw the hurt, and she couldn’t help herself. She saw the man that she knew and always loved. Always. Despite her own feelings of hurt and betrayal she couldn’t help herself. She gave in to those feelings and kissed him, catching them both by surprise. Todd did not hesitate- he always was a man of opportunity. He reached over and grabbed her by the back of her head and kissed bher back, with as much passion of a man of a mysterious past could. As much as Blair hated herself for it, she willingly gave in to his strength, and allowed herself to be taken. Todd grabbed her, touched her, Reaching under her shirt, he fumbled with her shirt while at the same time leaning against her until she fell against the couch, kissing her the entire time. Blair returned the favor, moving her hand underneath his shirt, feeling the familiarity of his chest. It had been so long, but this was definitely Todd. Her Todd.
.
After they dressed, Blair ran her fingers through his hair. Sometimes she really missed his long hair, but she knew that for him, it was a painful reminder of his past. They had connected, and he had definitely left no doubt that he was her man and always would be. Let the doubters doubt. She knew with no uncertainty that Todd Manning was back, and needed no blood test to tell her anything else.
“Blair..” Todd started.
“Yes?”
“Thanks,” Todd mumbled. “I..”
“Ssh,” she placed her finger on his lips, knowing how uncomfortable he was with words of feelings. She knew how he felt, and she knew everything she needed to know. Todd was back, and that was enough for her.
tbc
