Christmas without you

[jessie]

Luke, and Reid Christmas Story.

Reid finally got his own place, he thought he would move out of Katie's place, since she has been dating Chris. He found the place near the hospital it was a small house, but he liked it. He went inside, and smiled as he looked around. He had to go out shopping to get some furniture, especially a TV, couch, and bedroom set. He knew he wouldn't be spending to much time at home with his job. He wouldn't be entertaining much either he finally realized Luke was never coming to him, he had to deal with it. He thought he better not run into Noah , and Luke much because he might kill Noah. He laughed thinking how awful a Doctor would say something so horrible , but he thought it. He went upstairs, he had 3 bedrooms, he was going to make one his office, and one his bedroom, and a guestroom for weekends he took Jacob. He was going to miss his little Bud but he still will go to his baseball games, and he is so happy he is going to play hockey this year. Reid was going to go out , and buy them both skates he was going to teach him how to skate. He was happy Chris was not a sports guy, he loved watching but he didn't really play sports. Reid had the day off so he decided to go to the mall to get some stuff. He would order a bed, and couch, he would buy a sleeping blanket to sleep on for the time being. He was use to that he wasn't fragile he would sleep at work if he had to. He didn't like to do that because the Nurses, and Bob come after him asking him if he is OK. He left the house, and went to the mall. He grabbed a sleeping bag, pillows, and some other essentials, he needed in the kitchen. He bought some lamps, and a new phone, and he saw a cool picture, of the Dallas Cowboy's he had to get for his office room. He went to the furniture shop, and picked out stuff, he actually bought a kitchen set too. He smiled he was really making his home a home for what himself. He was walking through the mall with his stuff when he saw a small tree it was like the Charlie Brown tree he saw in a Charlie Brown movie Jacob made him watch. He put his bags down, and smiled, "I could use a tree for Jacob". He went inside the lady gave him a look wondering why he wanted that little pathetic tree. He didn't care he got it, and some small ornaments, and picked up his bags, and was walking to the door. He was shocked when he saw Noah, and Luke walk into the mall laughing. He hoped they would walk by but Luke noticed him, he was shocked when they both walked over.

"Reid"

"Yeah that is me"

Luke smiled, "Wow do you need help"?

"No I can manage, thanks anyway"

Noah smiled, "Reid this is Christmas time chill out"

Luke whispered, "Noah go check out the video store see if they have the video Natalie wants"

"What are you going to do"?

"Talk to Reid for a minute, I will be right there"

"Whatever" Noah walked away, Reid smiled, "Oh he is a ball of joy"

"He is OK Reid I really want to be friends"

"Luke that isn't possible go be with your boyfriend"

"Reid for God sake stop"

"What Luke"? Reid dropped half the stuff, he bent down picking it up. Luke went to help, "No go to Noah, I can do this"

"You are so stubborn I swear Reid it is no wonder your alone"

"Yeah I'm alone Luke that was real nice of you to say"

"Crap I'm sorry" Luke grabbed the tree, "You bought a tree this is sad"

"Why it kind of reminds me of me, it is unique"

"Yeah you are that"

"Luke please don't do this it is to hard for me"

"Reid"

Reid took the tree, "I can't do this I'm sorry" He walked away leaving Luke staring. He looked back to see if Noah was looking he saw Reid go through the doors. He ran after him, and yelled, "Reid wait".

"For what"?

"I'm so sorry"

"Me too goodbye Luke". Reid walked away, Luke watched him, never feeling more sad, knowing it was Reid he wanted, but he couldn't hurt Noah, not after all they have been through.

[melindajo2000]

this is going to be great I can tell. love it already!

[Sanda]

Great start to your new story Jessie. Poor Reid and Luke. I would definitely lose my spirit for Christmas if I had see Luke and Noah together at the shopping mall.

[jessie]

Thanks for your comments, this is sad but this will turn out wonderful, at least I hope you think it does.

Chapter 2

Reid got home he was so upset but he hated it was getting to him. He put his stuff down, and walked over putting his beer in the fridge. He wished his TV was here he could use it right about now. He was glad he bought a book but he didn't think he could read right now. He put his sleeping bag down, as he pulled off his jeans putting them on the railing of the stairs. He laughed he could walk around naked if he wanted to, he was glad the previous owners left curtains. He went to the fridge grabbing a beer, and the bag of chips, and his book laying on the sleeping bag. He was eating the chips, reading the first page but he really wasn't in the mood. He put it down looking at the ceiling thinking about Luke, and how he looked. He whispered, "Reid stop he isn't yours he made his choice" . He grabbed his cell phone wanting to call Jacob but he knew Chris would think he was pathetic he just left them, and he is calling already. How sad was it he wished he was back at Katie's he couldn't stand being here alone. He thought it would be great but he was more lonely than ever. He was flipping through the photos seeing so many of Katie, and Jacob. He smiled as he saw Snickers the old bunny was sweet he had to admit he missed him. He flipped to the next picture seeing Luke, he thought he deleted all the photos. He obviously didn't. He touched the photo whispering, "I miss you Luke"

Reid shut his phone, looking at the tree. He smiled walking over picking it up walking over putting it by the window. He grabbed the ornaments, and started to put them on. He smiled, "Now that is cute". Reid turned the lights on, and sat looking at the tree, but suddenly tears came to his eyes. He thought it was so unfair, he was alone, and Noah was with the man he loved. He knew Luke loved him to but he was staying with Noah out a sense of obligation. He admired that but he also hated Luke for giving up on him, leaving him to pine alone, Reid realized he would probably be alone forever, he was tired of falling for someone only to get hurt. He never wanted to admit it but he loved 2 people in his life, and both men hurt him, and he vowed never to let anyone close again. It hurts to be alone, but it hurts to love, and than be let down when they walk away, and never look back. He should leave Oakdale, but he loved working at the hospital, and he wasn't going to run, he would eventually come to terms with Luke and Noah being together, but just not today. He got up walking over to the sleeping bag picking the chips up bringing them to the kitchen, and threw his beer out, he knew drinking would only make it worse. He walked over turning the light out, as he laid down on his sleeping bag, and went to sleep all alone, hoping tonight he wouldn't wake up after having another dream about Luke.

[Sanda]

OMG Jessie this chapter was soo sad. Poor Reid in this chapter. :'(OMG Reid needs to have me as his neighbor to help cheer him. ;D

[melindajo2000]

Poor Reid it being alone, you made his feelings very real and they came through very well in this chapter..you did an excellent job!

[jessie]

Chapter 3

Reid woke up the next morning getting up going upstairs to shower. He came down grabbing 2 pop tarts, and wrapping them in a napkin he left the house. He got in his car, and drove to the hospital going inside. He walked to his office, and went inside dropping his bag down, sitting down with his coffee he picked up. He was looking at the charts, he had one surgery today. He almost dropped his coffee when he saw Luke walk into his office.

"Reid are you busy"

"Yeah I'm about to go on rounds why are you here"?

"Last night I couldn't get you out of my mind. I felt bad, I hate that you feel you can't be friends with me"

"Luke I'm not in the mood for this, I don't want a friendship with you I'm sorry"

"Why"?

"God are you deaf, I don't want a friendship I see you, and you know what I wanted. You want Noah, and I'm dealing with it, I don't understand it"

"Noah is a good guy, you hate him because he hit you he was wrong"

"You think he should have hit you"

"What"?

"Just kidding but you were the one coming on to me Luke"

"I was not"

"You know you wanted me just as much as I wanted you. I saw your eyes, I saw you checking me out, don't admit it, but we both know'

"Of course I wanted you we kissed enough"

"Yeah we would have made love enough too if your Mom, the pizza guy, and Noah didn't ruin it"

"Yeah I know that would have complicated things" Reid smiled, "No if we made love you would have never left me Richie Rich"

"OMG your full of yourself"

"Oh no you have no idea what you lost out on, but you can dream about it"

"Oh Reid stop this"

Reid smiled, "Go have a nice life, I'm fine really I am"

"You are alone Reid, how is your place"

"Great I love it there, I have my little Charlie brown tree up, and everything"

"That tree is pathetic"

"No it is cute, I have to go Luke, thanks for dropping by, it was nice seeing you." Reid went to walk by but Luke grabbed his arm.

"Luke what are you doing"?

"I can't leave Noah it would kill him, but I can't let you go either"

"What you want Noah, and you want to torture me"

Luke moved close, "I want you Reid"

Reid pulled away, "Luke are you leaving Noah"?

"No I can't"

"Than leave me alone". He walked out leaving Luke alone. Luke sat down putting his hands to his face. He didn't know what to do, he was so torn, he really cared for them both. He loved one but he knew he couldn't hurt Noah, they have been through so much. Luke got up walking over picking up Reid's sweater he held it close. He didn't know what came over him but he walked out with it, he wanted something of Reid's to hold on to.

Reid was talking to a Nurse he saw Luke get on the elevator. They both look at each other as the elevator closed. Reid turned, "I will be on my rounds". The two nurses look at each other when one whispered, "He is moody but so cute"

"He is gay Angela"

"I know" They smile as they went back to work.

[Sanda]

Poor Reid. OMG Luke is an idiot, he needs to dump Noah and go back to Reid. I don't blame Reid at all for telling Luke that he won't date him while he is still with Noah. I am on Team Reid 100% in this story. ;D Noah is awful.

[melindajo2000]

I don't blame Reid either he needs to stick to his word, I am looking foward to seeing what happens next, this is already a favorite of mine

[jessie]

Chapter 4

It was 7 Reid was exhausted, he decided to go to Al's diner for dinner. He drove over parking going inside, sitting at a booth. Parker walked over, "Hey Reid what would you like tonight"?

"A burger, and a chocolate shake"

"What about fries"?

"Yeah that would be great" Parker smiled, and walked over to place the order. Reid grabbed one of his files, and was reading it. He heard people come into the restaurant laughing, he turned seeing Luke and Noah. Reid couldn't believe his luck, he almost got up but he decided to stay, and have his meal. Noah and Luke sat down when Luke noticed Reid. Noah turned, "Oh great lets go somewhere else"

"No it is fine"

"Are you going to stare at him all night"?

"No I just noticed him here he was here first"

"I know that is why we should leave"

"We all have to live in this town Noah let it go"

"Let it go you have the hots for the guy you make eyes at him every time you see him. Remember what happened last night, I won't tolerate that every night"

"It was a first for me I don't know what happened"

"That guy happened do you want me"?

"I'm with you Noah"

"Than stop looking at him than". Luke grabbed the menu, "what are you going to have Noah"?

"Chicken burger I guess"

"Maybe I will have a salad"

"Luke eat for God sake"

"I'm not really hungry"

"Whatever". Parker walked over, "Hey Luke, Noah"

"Hey Parker". They gave Parker their order, he walked away. Noah smiled, "Maybe when we go home we can shower, and go to bed early"

"I thought we were going to watch CSI"

"Well I thought me , and my guy can have a romantic night, not a lets hang , and watch boring TV night"

"Why is it whatever, I want to do is boring, but what you want is a great idea"?

"Now getting romantic with me isn't fun"?

"I didn't say that but I watch CSI every week you know it"

"Watch it than, I will go to bed early alone"

Luke whispered, "Fine you win"

Parker walked Reid's food over to him, Reid smiled as he walked away. Noah got up to go to the washroom but he glared at Reid as he walked by. Reid smiled as Noah went into the washroom, he picked up one of his fries, and was about to eat it. Luke walked over, "I'm surprised to see you here"

"Why I can't eat out"

"You said you hate eating out you would rather have a TV dinner"

"I did say that, but tonight I treated myself"

"I'm sorry about this morning, I had no right coming to your office like that"

"Luke go before Noah comes out I have a splitting headache today, I don't want to fight with him"

"Reid I took your sweater this morning"

"You what"?

"I wanted something of yours"

"OMG this is to much for me, Luke what are you doing"?

"I don't know"

Noah walked out of the bathroom, and came storming over to the table.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. Poor Reid having to subjected OMG I feel horrible for Reid having to look at Luke and Noah having dinner together while he is also eating dinner at Al's. The thought of Noah and Luke being together makes me sick to my stomach. I hope Reid's horrible headache goes away soon. I would love to come and take away poor Reid's pain. ;D Please update this awesome story again soon.

[melindajo2000]

it is too much thinking about Noah and Luke together I really dont like them either but I can't wait to see where you take this wonderful story. glad you updated

[jessie]

Chapter 5

Noah stormed over, "Why are you over here, I go to the washroom, and your over here talking to him"

"It is my fault, I called him" Reid said

Noah laughed, "You can't take no for a answer he wants me not you"

"I can suggest a good Doctor for him to see he is crazy I know"

"I beat you up once do you want to be beat again"?

"You sucker punched me hit me again, and I will defend myself that is a promise"

"Stay away from Luke do you hear me"

"Yeah"

Luke grabbed Noah's arm, "Lets go back to the table" Noah walked away Luke followed he didn't want to provoke Noah anymore than he already was. Reid called Parker over, "Can I have my bill"?

"Sure but you didn't finish"

"I lost my appetite"

"I'm sorry"

"It is fine" Parker came over with his bill he paid, and tipped him, and walked out. Luke felt bad knowing it was his fault he should have stayed away from Reid. It was killing him, he couldn't eat but he had to force it down he didn't want Noah freaking out again. They finished, they paid, and left to go home.

Reid was driving home he knew Jacob would be still up. He didn't realize but he drove to Katie's house. He knocked Chris answered carrying Jacob.

"Reid"

"Oh I was driving by I thought maybe I could tuck Jacob in , and read him a story"

"That is my job right Buddy we were going up now"

Reid smiled, "Oh I'm sorry, I just thought" Chris could see Reid was upset, he whispered, "Well take him up, I'm sure he loves when you read him a Bedtime story'. Reid put his hands out Jacob hugged him.

"Thank you Chris"

"Go up Katie is upstairs, tell her I will make some coffee"

"Sure" Reid walked upstairs, Katie was shocked seeing him. She smiled, "I didn't know you were coming over"?

"I miss Jacob, I needed to see him"

"You OK Reid you look pale"

"I'm fine, I will read a story than leave"

"I made some apple pie come down, I will get you some"

"OK thanks" She kissed Jacob, "I story than bedtime"

"OK Mom" Katie shut the door, Reid sat Jacob down. He walked over, grabbing Jacob's favourite book. He sat down Jacob cuddled beside him, "Uncle Reid, I miss you so much"

"Miss you too Bud"

"Why are you sad"?

"I'm a little lonely but I'm fine"

"You can move back here, Mommy would say OK"

"Oh no I have my own place, but your visiting Friday right"

"Yeah"

"I have a Christmas tree you will love it"

"Are you going to spend Christmas with me, and Mommy and Chris this year Uncle Reid"?

"No Mommy is going to Chris's family, I'm not welcome there"

"Yeah you are"?

"No, I have other plans don't worry about me"

"I want you to come Uncle Reid"

"That means the world to me Jacob, I don't know what I would do without you, and Mommy"

"Uncle Reid are you going to teach me how to skate"?

"You bet Friday, maybe we can go tobogganing"

"Yeah"

"I will ask Mommy"

Jacob smiled as Reid opened the book , and was reading. It only took 10 minutes, Jacob was out. Reid sat looking at the book, he finally got up picking up Jacob's teddy, and whispered, "Hey Bud remember me, I fixed you right up" . He hugged the bear, and never felt more alone. He smiled as he put it in Jacob's arms, and gave him a kiss. He put the book back, he walked downstairs. Katie and Chris were sitting on the couch. Reid walked over grabbing his coat, "I will get out of your hair"

"Wait have some coffee, and pie"

"No, I'm tired, but thank you"

Chris got up, "Stay Katie wants you to"

Reid hugged Katie, "Thanks for understanding I needed to see Jacob, I really owe you both a lot"

"Reid are you OK"?

"Yeah, see you both later". Reid left Katie, and Chris look at each other knowing something was wrong, Reid was really down, and it upset them.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. I don't like that Luke is with Noah in this story. I loved the scene between Jacob and Reid in this chapter. I am so happy that Chris wasn't an ass when Reid wanted to tuck Jacob in and read him a bedtime story. I love that Reid was hugging Jacob's Teddy bear that fixed for Jacob when he was a baby. I hope things get better for Reid really soon.

[jessie]

Dec 2, 2011 23:38:22 GMT -6 Sanda said:

Great update Jessie. I don't like that Luke is with Noah in this story. I loved the scene between Jacob and Reid in this chapter. I am so happy that Chris wasn't an ass when Reid wanted to tuck Jacob in and read him a bedtime story. I love that Reid was hugging Jacob's Teddy bear that fixed for Jacob when he was a baby. I hope things get better for Reid really soon.

Thanks for reading my update, I know you don't like Noah, and Luke together.

I know Noah is a pain, but this will be a happy ending, it will just take some time. lol