A Child's Cry for help

[melindajo2000]

Sue Ellen was so good to him, if JR is the father I hope he's not mean to him. Great update

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. OMG JR is awful towards Josh. I don't blame Sue Ellen for being protective of Josh.

[jessie]

Chapter 14

Sue Ellen shut the bathroom door as Josh got in the shower. She walked down the hall she felt ill. She remembered Luther, she remembered his cruel, and disgusting voice. He was cruel, and she shivered thinking poor Josh was beaten, and hurt by him. He was a sweet child, and he didn't deserve this, but she hated that she didn't feel sorry for , Marilou.
She sat on the couch wondering how she would stay, and allow that man to abuse her, and her child. She wiped some tears from her face, she was the same she stayed in a bad marriage because she loved JR, he hit her once, but what he did to her was just as bad as abuse. She got up when she heard someone knocking at her door. It was the pizza delivery guy, she got the money, and tipped him, and took the pizza. She went into the dining room, and put the pizza down, as she set the table. She grabbed Josh some juice, and she got a diet cola for herself. She heard the bathroom door open, she smiled as he came into the dining room.

"Hey just in time the pizza is here, I bet you are really hungry"

'Yes I'm starving"

Sue Ellen smiled as she told him to sit down, as she got him a slice of pizza, and a piece of garlic bread.

"Thank you"

"My son John Ross loves pizza too, you would like him Josh"

" I don't have a brother or sister Daddy said Mom only gave him me. He didn't like me much, I was bad he said"

"I'm sure you were fine your Daddy had a problem Sweetie"

"I want my Mom, will I see her again"?

"Someday but not right now"

"Is my Daddy going to be OK, I didn't want Mommy to hurt him. It was my fault, I should have been a good boy, and he would leave Mommy alone"

"This is not your fault , your Mom tried to protect you"

"Is that man that was here my Dad, Payton said he was my Daddy now"?

" Sweetie lets eat, and lets get you to bed, and get some sleep. You have a big day tomorrow, you need some rest"

Josh was eating Sue Ellen was watching him, she didn't know what to think. Part of her wanted Josh to be JR's, but part of her didn't. He was so sweet, but she knew everything would change if he was. Josh deserved a good life, and she knew he may never be with his Mother again. She hoped the courts gave her a break, Luther was violent, and he deserved what he got. She knew taking the law into your own hands isn't right but that night when Luther terrorized her, and the family, she would have killed him if she got the chance. She could have shot JR too she hated him , but she had to forgive him, but you would think he would have changed but he didn't. He cheated again the next week, and she knew it was that day that she grew cold inside, she hated herself for staying with JR, but she knew walking away from the only family she had was not an option. She couldn't go back home to her Mother, that would be worse, than staying with JR. She made so many mistakes in her life, but for once she knew she had to be strong for John Ross, and Josh. She wanted to accept him as JR's child, but she needs to know JR will be beside her, and together they will help Josh adjust to his new life. She jumped as the phone rang.

"Keep eating Sweetie , I will be right back"

Sue Ellen got up running to the phone, and said, "Hello"

"Hey Sue Ellen how is everything going"?

"He is eating you should see the bruises JR, I can't imagine what he went through"

"Sue Ellen I will be there at 9am, we will find out the truth soon. I really don't believe he is my son, but if he is we will deal with it than"

"He is so sweet, and so alone, he wants his Mom"

"Well that isn't happening, I called to see what is going on with her. Luther is critical they don't think he will make it. She is in jail she can not come up with the bail she has no one"

"God"

"Sue Ellen there is nothing we can do to help her. She tried to kill her husband, she has to pay for that"

"He hurt them both, I would kill anyone hurting my son"

"Sue Ellen get some rest, I will see you in the morning"

"JR"

"Yes Sue Ellen"

"I'm scared JR, please come here, and be with me"

"I can't tonight Sugar, you will be fine, what your doing for that boy is real sweet"

"Goodnight JR" She hung up, and stood by the counter trying to compose herself. She turned but felt Josh hug her, and she knelt down hugging him back.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. Poor Josh. I hope that JR is Josh's son that Sue Ellen and JR can raise him and give a better home than his mom and Luther did.

[melindajo2000]

JR is so mean, typical JR. great story !

[jessie]

Chapter 15

Sue Ellen knelt down, and touched Josh's cheek, and he smiled at her but she could see he was scared. She told him to go back, and finish his pizza.

"Are you going to eat too"?

"Sure lets go eat" She walked over, she really didn't feel like eating but she did because she wanted Josh to eat. He was eating, and she smiled he was such an amazing child, she was looking at him trying to see if she could see any resemblance to JR.

"You are not eating " Josh said, and Sue Ellen told him she wasn't feeling to well.

"Is it because of me"

"No I'm just tired, and I'm worry about you"

"I'm scared "

Sue Ellen touched his hand he said he was finished. She took his hand, and said he should get some sleep. She walked down the hall, and went into the room Josh was going to sleep in. She pulled the comforter, and sheets down, and than turned to tell Josh to go to the bathroom, and brush his teeth for bed. Josh went into the bathroom Sue Ellen sat on the bed, she waited for Josh to come out. He came out asking where the toothbrush was. She went into the bathroom, and found a new one in the cupboard, and rinsed it off. She handed it to Josh, and he asked her if she was going to watch to make sure he did it right his Mommy always did.

" Sure if you want me too" Josh was brushing his teeth, and Sue Ellen said he did a great job. She took his hand, and walked him out, and he got in bed, and she pulled the covers up. He grabbed her hand, and Sue Ellen whispered, "I promise you no one will hurt you Sweetie"

"I don't want you to go please stay with me"

"I will be right next door"

Sue Ellen got up but Josh cried out, and Sue Ellen sat beside him, and hugged him saying she will stay with him. She laid beside him, and he was quiet, and she told him to shut his eyes, and told him he was safe with her. He shut his eyes, and she laid there watching him, she knew she couldn't leave his side, he was afraid, and she couldn't blame him. He missed his Mom, he witnessed his Dad being shot, and he was brought here by that horrible man, and he was so confused.

She started to drift off asleep,they both were snuggled together.

JR opened the door of the condo, he felt horrible leaving her alone, when this was really his responsibility not hers. He had to make this right, and he really hoped Josh was not his because it would only make things in their marriage worse. She would probably hate him, and how would he explain Josh to the family, and the world for that matter. He hated that the child suffered, and he would make sure he was safe, but he couldn't stay with them. He walked down the hall looking in the master bedroom, and was surprised Sue Ellen was not in there. He walked out going into the other bedroom, and opened the door, and stood in shock. He saw them snuggled together, he couldn't believe his eyes she was doing exactly what he told her not to do. He walked over, he was looking at the child, and he couldn't keep his eyes off of him. He was cute, but he couldn't see any resemblance to himself. He walked around touching Sue Ellen making her jump.

"Sue Ellen come out in the living room, don't wake the child"

"I can't leave him alone he is afraid, I promised him I would be here when he wakes up"

"I told you not to get attached he is not my child"

"How do you know he could be JR"?

"Oh God come out of this room, I'm getting angry".

"No why are you here"?

JR grabbed Sue Ellen she pulled away, and JR pulled her up, and was pulling her out of the room. Sue Ellen and JR jump when Josh yelled, "Don't hurt her please, I will be a good boy, I promise"

Sue Ellen went to go to him, but JR walked over first, and knelt down, and whispered, "I'm so sorry, I wasn't going to hurt her promise"

Josh went into his arms, and Sue Ellen started to cry, when JR hugged him, and she could see a side to JR that she knew was in there, but she rarely saw.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. OMG JR was awful scaring Sue Ellen snd pulling her up by her arm in front of Josh causing him to wake up and scream not to hurt Sue Ellen and that he would be a good boy. I don't blame Sue Ellen for getting attached to Josh. I like how sweet lJR was with Josh at the end of this chapter after he was so awful pulling on Sue Ellen's arm in front of the child.

[melindajo2000]

great update I agree with everything Sanda said! Keep up the outstanding work

[jessie]

Chapter 16

JR touched Josh's shoulder, and told him to get under the covers. Josh did what he was told, and JR pulled the covers up, and sat beside him.

"Josh I'm going out in the other room to talk to Sue Ellen. We are right out there, and I promise you if you need us we will come right back in. "

"You are mad at her"?

"No I'm not mad I'm frustrated, but it isn't your fault or Sue Ellen's"

"I'm scared your not going to leave me"

"No I'm a man of my word we are right outside this door, you go to sleep you have a big day tomorrow"

"Can I see my Mommy tomorrow"?

"No Josh you can't your Mom is in serious trouble she did something bad, and she could be in jail for a very long time"

"JR no" Sue Ellen said but JR looked at her, "Sue Ellen the child needs to know the truth his Mother may never get out of jail"

"My Daddy was hurting us she was protecting me"

"I understand that but your Mom is in serious trouble , but maybe the jury will have sympathy for her"

A tear rolled down Josh's cheek, JR told him to lay back, and shut his eyes. Josh laid back, and JR got up shutting the lamp off, and he walked over to Sue Ellen, and they both left the room. JR shut the door, and Sue Ellen walked down the hall, and sat on the couch.

JR walked in going to get a bourbon he asked Sue Ellen if she wanted anything?

"No thanks". JR grabbed his drink, and walked over sitting beside Sue Ellen, and looked at her.

"Sue Ellen you are getting to attached to that young boy"

"His name is Josh, and he could be your child remember that"

"Yes he could, and if he is I will take care of him, but if he isn't he will be sent to a good home"

"No JR he needs us now"

"Sue Ellen how would we explain him , oh Ma Ma look who walked into my life. That man that came to our house all those years ago, and almost raped my wife, and terrorized the family raised this boy, and they thought he was mine but it turns out his Ma Ma slept with half the men in her town, and who knows who the Daddy is"?

"You should talk your judging her, you slept with her"

"Listen you are not pure by any means should we make a list of your mistakes"

"Do you know how I felt that night JR"?

"God I'm sorry I slept with that woman, we met at a bar, Ray hooked up with her friend, and we had a good time. I didn't care at the time I was hurting you, and I didn't know she was married"

"You were married JR, that man treated me like dirt. He put his hands all over me, I hated you for that"

"He didn't rape you that is all that matters"

"Your family let them walk because of their precious name, we wouldn't want a scandal. I think all of Dallas knew you were a cheat, and a lousy husband, so it really shouldn't be a scandal should it"

"I came here to discuss the boy not to fight with you"

Sue Ellen walked over sitting in the love seat, and JR grabbed his bourbon, and leaned back, and took a sip.

"JR I never ask you for much, but I'm begging you please let Josh stay with us even if he is not your son. We could give him a home, and help him forget about all the abuse, I think he is already trusting me, I can't let anything happen to him "

"If Luther survives he could get the boy back"

Sue Ellen was horrified thinking Luther could get custody of the boy after everything he did to him.

"No we could fight him, I will not let that man hurt him anymore. He is disgusting, and I will not let him take something else from me"

Sue Ellen sat down putting her hands to her face. JR got up, and walked over putting his hand on her knee.

"Sue Ellen what do you mean he will not take anything else from you"?

"I don't want to talk about it"

"To bad I do what do you mean"?

"He didn't rape me JR but it felt like I was raped. He watched me undress, he touched me, and said horrible things. I never felt more ashamed it was like he stripped ever ounce of dignity out of me, and it was all your fault. I wanted him to hurt you, because you hurt me. You brought those men to our house, you disgraced the family, but he went after me, Pam, and Lucy. He should have hurt you, I would have enjoyed watching that, but no it was me"

"God have you felt this way all this time"? JR said waiting for Sue Ellen's answer.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. I didn't like Luther at all the show. Luther was such an evil character. I hope that Sue Ellen and JR fight for custody of Josh.

[melindajo2000]

love this chapter, I hope that Luther does not get custody of Josh, very well written!

[jessie]

Chapter 17

"Sue Ellen that night happened so long ago are you still holding a grudge"?

"God are you insane yes I remember that night like it was yesterday. You never take responsibility for your actions whatever you do is alright because you are sorry".

"What about you Sue Ellen , remember Cliff, and the whole baby crap"?

"God that was your fault"?

"Really who is taking responsibility , I fooled around so it is OK if you do ? A lady should act better than that"?

"You are kidding a lady what about a man who is married"?

"You want to know why I fool around"?

"Yeah tell me JR"?

"Because I can but I have been faithful for 5 months, and that is the truth"?

"5 months amazing, but can I believe you"?

"See if I tell you the truth you don't believe me anyway. You drive me insane, I asked you to not get involved with that child, and what do you do you try to Mother him. He isn't my child, I would know if I had a child out there , I would feel it"

"Really maybe you have a dozen more, I'm going to bed"

"Wait Sue Ellen, I need to ask you something"

"What do you want to know if I have been faithful JR"?

"No that isn't the question"

"What than"?

"What if he is my child can you really deal with raising a child of mine, and having everyone know he is a product of an affair"?

"It isn't that child's fault, it would be hard but I could do it"

"Really or would you throw it in my face everyday, I know you Sue Ellen"

"JR I hope Josh is yours because he needs a good home, and he needs family, and I think maybe he will help us get our marriage back"

"What are you talking about we are married we have a child at home who needs his Mom, and his Dad"

"I know that but really are we happy"?

"I thought we were , are you saying you are not happy"?

Sue Ellen walked over to JR, and sat down, and she looked into his eyes.

"Promise you won't get mad JR"?

"Oh God there is another man"?

"No there is no one else, but I wanted another child, but it obviously isn't happening for us. You rarely are at home, you work all the time, and I'm home wondering what you are doing. I thought if we had another child maybe things would change"

"He is not your child Sue Ellen"?

"God you are so stupid why do I bother"? Sue Ellen got up , and ran down the hall to her room, and shut the door. JR sat there for the longest time wondering what just happened. He finally got up, and walked down the hall, and checked on Josh he was sound to sleep. JR than walked out, and shut the door, and went over to Sue Ellen's room, and opened the door.

"Sue Ellen can I come in"?

"You do what you want anyway why bother asking"?

"I'm sorry, I don't get what your saying to me. You want another baby, we will try harder but wanting Josh thinking he will make our family better is a bit crazy"

"Yeah thinking we could be a family is crazy JR. I love you but I'm tired of you never being there for me."

"You have a lovely home, family, John Ross, and money what else do you want"?

"A husband JR , I want a husband who wants me, and I feel like you are slipping away, and I hate it"

"I'm right here, I'm not going anywhere. Please just tell me what you want from me, and I will do it"?

"I want Josh to be part of our family , even if it turns out he is not your son. I feel so bad for him, and I feel if we can focus on someone else like John Ross, and Josh maybe we can be the family, I dreamed of. We both are selfish John Ross has suffered because we only cared about our needs, and wants."

"John Ross is fine God Sue Ellen stop this"

"Are you telling me you will not fight to keep Josh"?

"We will find out if he is mine, and even if he isn't, I will accept him into our family for you"

"For us"?

"OK Sue Ellen for us"

Sue Ellen went into his arms, and he hugged her.

[Sanda]

Great update Jessie. I hope that JR will be able to keep gussied and stay faithful for Sue Ellen, John Ross, and Josh's sakes.

[melindajo2000]

great update, I am glad that JR finally came around

[jessie]

Chapter 18

"Sue Ellen can I tell you something without you going ballistic on me"?

"Depends if what you just said to me was all a lie I will go ballistic"

"No but I'm going over that weekend in my head, the trip I was on with Ray when I met Josh's Mom"

"Yeah I guess you had a wild time away from your wife please don't tell me about his Ma Ma"

"I was such a jerk back than, and Ray was pretty wild too. We actually were friends, and we did some really crazy stuff"

"Yeah but he wasn't married you were"

"I know will you let me finish please"

"Fine what are you going to tell me"?

"Well that night we were hanging out at the bar. I wish I drove right past that town, but I didn't, and looking back now I was asking for trouble. We met these two ladies at the bar, and they sure didn't act like married women"

'You didn't act like a married man"

"I'm just saying Ray was dancing with one of the girls, I was talking to one of them. Ray left, and came back 1 hour later, I think he made out with the one young woman, and I think it was Josh's Mom"

"No you made out with Josh's Mom"

"Yeah later that night the woman I was talking to took a liking to Ray, and the next thing I know I was in bed with Wanda she was way to wild I thought she was a hooker"

Sue Ellen got off the bed, "Oh my God are you saying you, and Ray slept with his Mom"

"I never asked Ray but I did, and she kind of said I was the better lover of the two, but she could be saying that in the heat of the moment"

"OK I'm going to be sick you both are disgusting "

"Oh come on we were drunk"

"Oh more that just drunk JR, so your saying Ray could be the Daddy "?

"Well it is a possibility but I'm sure there is many more men out their that should be tested"

"Call Ray, and tell him"

"No Ray is with Donna now, and if I call him up she will probably freak out, and I will be blamed for ruining his relationship with that woman"

"I will tell him than you both will be tested, and if he is the Father he should man up, and take care of his child"

"I'm sure he would"

"This keeps getting worse, and worse that poor child"

"He will be fine"

"He lost his Mother, his step Father beat him, and if Ray is the Father we will lose him"

Sue Ellen sat on the bed, and started to cry, and JR moved over.

"Come on how could you be so attached already"?

"I don't know maybe it is his eyes he is so alone, and scared, but he is sweet, how could that be after everything he went through"?

"I don't know but he is pretty amazing"

"Really"?

"I can see he is a great kid, but I'm not so sure if he is mine, but if he is I promise you he will be part of the family"

"He loves his Mom do you think she will go to jail"?

"I don't know maybe for a while, but maybe they will see she shot the guy in self defense"

Sue Ellen looked at JR who whispered, "Lets get some sleep, and if I'm not the Father, I will ask Ray to get tested, there is no need to tell him yet, and mess up his life too"

"You are worried about Ray's love life"?

"No but I really don't need Donna on my case"

"What were you both thinking JR"?

"We were not thinking Sue Ellen, we just wanted a good time, and we got it, but it was the biggest mistake of my life"

"Because you got caught, and those guys embarrassed you in front of the family. You obviously didn't learn your lesson you continued I will never understand that. I'm going to check on Josh, I need to be alone".

Sue Ellen got up walking out of the room, JR laid back, and put his hands over his face realizing this situation keeps getting worse, and he wondered how it will all turn out in the end?