Post by jessie on Sept 29, 2014 21:58:40 GMT -6
I want to write something to show how I feel right now. I miss my Mom so much nothing feels right now that I have lost her. I know people say in time it will get easier but I doubt it ever will.
Missing you so Much
The day I took you to the hospital, I never thought the next day you would be gone. I feel so bad and I keep asking myself over and over what could I have done differently. I don't think anything but I know I had to take you to the hospital but my heart is saying I wish I didn't. I wish I said more but I didn't want to scare you. You knew I loved you but I wish I said it more. You know I would do anything for you but I wish I did more. I know life has to go on but when you feel you lost everything how are you suppose to go on. I try to show my Family that I am doing ok but inside I feel like I am dead. I know you would want me to go on, and be happy, and carry on in your memory but I am trying but it hurts so much I want to scream. I would never do anything stupid but I doubt I will ever be happy again until the day we are together again. I love you Mom, and I think about you all the time. I pray you are at peace, and with your Mom and Dad and your sisters and brothers and friends. You were loved by everyone that met you because you were so kind, sweet, and giving, and friendly. I wish I was half the woman you are but know I am grateful for the wonderful life I had with you. I would do anything to have you back but that is not going to happen so until we meet again know I miss you so much.
Your Daughter xoxox
Missing you so Much
The day I took you to the hospital, I never thought the next day you would be gone. I feel so bad and I keep asking myself over and over what could I have done differently. I don't think anything but I know I had to take you to the hospital but my heart is saying I wish I didn't. I wish I said more but I didn't want to scare you. You knew I loved you but I wish I said it more. You know I would do anything for you but I wish I did more. I know life has to go on but when you feel you lost everything how are you suppose to go on. I try to show my Family that I am doing ok but inside I feel like I am dead. I know you would want me to go on, and be happy, and carry on in your memory but I am trying but it hurts so much I want to scream. I would never do anything stupid but I doubt I will ever be happy again until the day we are together again. I love you Mom, and I think about you all the time. I pray you are at peace, and with your Mom and Dad and your sisters and brothers and friends. You were loved by everyone that met you because you were so kind, sweet, and giving, and friendly. I wish I was half the woman you are but know I am grateful for the wonderful life I had with you. I would do anything to have you back but that is not going to happen so until we meet again know I miss you so much.
Your Daughter xoxox
