Post by melinda on Apr 7, 2013 11:36:30 GMT -6
Ch 1
Roz had a secret, a terrible and guilt-inducing secret. For years now she'd known the truth but hadn't told anyone. If she were to tell someone who knows how this would play out?
She stared at her little girl as she lay beside her in her bed at three a.m. Time and time again Roz had tried to get Alice to stop sleeping in her mom's bed. But the truth be told, there was something that Alice's presence offered her that no man ever had. And she'd done the footwork.
Tears filled her eyes as she listened in closely, just to make sure her daughter was breathing. Of course she was, but that was almost beside the point. She knew she had her only child with her, which was something that might not be the case should the truth come out.
Of course she'd thought about telling Daphne. She'd be hurt because Roz had kept such a secret from her, but Daphne was Frasier's sister-in-law! There was no way that Daphne could keep something this huge from Frasier, especially now that Daphne was soon to deliver her own child with Niles.
She'd watched Daphne and Niles' relationship over the years and had to admit that she felt a pang of jealousy. Niles totally and completely adored his wife, something Roz was not even sure any man had ever felt close to feeling for her. There was Noel, but that was a different story for a different time. This was about Roz, and how she'd had to lie to so many people just to keep up her own little story.
Of course Frasier was Alice's father. They'd had a drunken one nighter after the Seebee's one night, and after doing the math, there was no question who the father was. She had tried to tell Frasier once, but he was so preoccupied with his latest fling that she just didn't have the heart to ruin his life like that. Frasier may have his faults, but he was a successful, handsome not mention wealthy pillar of society. A baby would just ruin things for him, and she cared far too much about him to do that to him.
Besides, there was Lilith. Roz knew that Frasier was deeply hurt by the ice queen, and his disparaging comments to the callers about her over the years revealed that he did not handle betrayal readily. Wasn't this what it was about- betrayal? Alice might have been an accident, but Roz thanked God every night for her. She sure wasn't going to call Alice a mistake the way one of her friends had. It was a mistake to have a drunken fling with her boss, but to call her daughter anything other than a blessing would be a terrible mistake on her part.
Which was something she was getting good at...mistake after mistake. She knew that Frasier would be hurt if he found out the truth, but what good would it do to tell anyone now? That would only hurt Frasier and confuse Alice.
So Roz decided to turn over and go to sleep. Tomorrow would prove to be a big day. She would find out who got the promotion at work. Unbeknownst to anyone she'd thrown her hat in the ring, so it was with a little anxiety that she rolled over after kissing Alice.
“Good night, my princess.”
“Night Mommy.”
And the end of another lie-filled day was fulfilled.
Roz had a secret, a terrible and guilt-inducing secret. For years now she'd known the truth but hadn't told anyone. If she were to tell someone who knows how this would play out?
She stared at her little girl as she lay beside her in her bed at three a.m. Time and time again Roz had tried to get Alice to stop sleeping in her mom's bed. But the truth be told, there was something that Alice's presence offered her that no man ever had. And she'd done the footwork.
Tears filled her eyes as she listened in closely, just to make sure her daughter was breathing. Of course she was, but that was almost beside the point. She knew she had her only child with her, which was something that might not be the case should the truth come out.
Of course she'd thought about telling Daphne. She'd be hurt because Roz had kept such a secret from her, but Daphne was Frasier's sister-in-law! There was no way that Daphne could keep something this huge from Frasier, especially now that Daphne was soon to deliver her own child with Niles.
She'd watched Daphne and Niles' relationship over the years and had to admit that she felt a pang of jealousy. Niles totally and completely adored his wife, something Roz was not even sure any man had ever felt close to feeling for her. There was Noel, but that was a different story for a different time. This was about Roz, and how she'd had to lie to so many people just to keep up her own little story.
Of course Frasier was Alice's father. They'd had a drunken one nighter after the Seebee's one night, and after doing the math, there was no question who the father was. She had tried to tell Frasier once, but he was so preoccupied with his latest fling that she just didn't have the heart to ruin his life like that. Frasier may have his faults, but he was a successful, handsome not mention wealthy pillar of society. A baby would just ruin things for him, and she cared far too much about him to do that to him.
Besides, there was Lilith. Roz knew that Frasier was deeply hurt by the ice queen, and his disparaging comments to the callers about her over the years revealed that he did not handle betrayal readily. Wasn't this what it was about- betrayal? Alice might have been an accident, but Roz thanked God every night for her. She sure wasn't going to call Alice a mistake the way one of her friends had. It was a mistake to have a drunken fling with her boss, but to call her daughter anything other than a blessing would be a terrible mistake on her part.
Which was something she was getting good at...mistake after mistake. She knew that Frasier would be hurt if he found out the truth, but what good would it do to tell anyone now? That would only hurt Frasier and confuse Alice.
So Roz decided to turn over and go to sleep. Tomorrow would prove to be a big day. She would find out who got the promotion at work. Unbeknownst to anyone she'd thrown her hat in the ring, so it was with a little anxiety that she rolled over after kissing Alice.
“Good night, my princess.”
“Night Mommy.”
And the end of another lie-filled day was fulfilled.
