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Post by melindajo2000 on Jul 20, 2012 19:28:53 GMT -6
Great update love how protective ray was being!
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Post by jessie on Jul 21, 2012 0:26:39 GMT -6
Chapter 28
Ray was in the kitchen Jessie came out, and Ray smiled putting his coffee mug in the sink.
"I'm ready to pick out my pink dress" She smiled, and he grabbed his truck keys, and wallet when they heard someone knocking at the door.
"Oh who could that be"?
"It better not be Terry or Keith I will lose it"
"Ray no promise me you won't fight with them, I don't want you getting hurt"
"I promise"
Ray walked over to the door, and opened it, and saw Jock standing there.
Jessie walked over, "Hi"
Jock smiled but gave Ray a look, and Jessie could see Jock was not happy.
"Jessie can you please go to your room, I have to talk to Ray in private it won't be long"
"Jock we were going out to get Jessie a dress you should have called"
"Since when do I have to call to speak to my Foreman"
Jessie jumped when Jock raised his voice, and said she would go to her room. Jock waited until she was in her room, and than he turned to Ray.
"Terry came by my place, and told me some stuff that I'm not happy about"
"Terry is a jerk he doesn't know what he is talking about"
"Really your my foreman, and you come back from taking a ride with Jessie , and your both all wet, he said you were having sex"
"Well he is wrong we are not having sex, but really it is none of your business or anyone business but mine, and Jessie's"
"You are working for me, I will not tolerate this crap Jessie can no longer work with you"
"No Jock that will hurt her she loves it, I swear nothing is going on well I'm working, this is crazy"
"I like you Ray but she is messed up, and your playing with fire , she can no longer work on the ranch, I can't stop you from keeping her here but she can not be distracting you during working hours"
Ray just stared at him, and Jock turned, and left, and Ray slammed the door shut. He walked into the kitchen he was so angry, he couldn't believe this was happening, but he had to remain calm for Jessie. He turned, and she walked into the kitchen, and walked over to him.
"Ray why was he so angry"?
"Lets go find that pink dress we can talk about it later"
"Ray tell me"
"Terry told him what he thinks is going on, and Jock is angry, he said you can't work around the ranch no more."
"Why we didn't do anything wrong Ray"?
"It is his Ranch, I told him what Terry said was a lie, and what we do is our business, but he is angry. It doesn't matter you can take care of me, and my place, and I can take care of you"
"No I wanted to work to earn my keep, I'm not going to live off you"
"I want to take care of you, I don't need you to earn your keep"
Jessie whispered, "I'm not good enough to work on this land, I'm not good enough to go to their stupid ball"
"Your going with me, Jock is a good man he might come around, but right now he is upset"
"I'm upset with him, and everyone, I hate my life"
"You hate me"?
Jessie was shaking, "No not you, but I don't deserve this, I love working with you it isn't fair"
"No it isn't fair but life sucks sometimes, and Terry will get his"
"Kick his butt for me"
"You said you didn't want me to fight"
"Well I don't but I'm angry, can I fight him"
Ray smiled, "You are way to adorable when your angry"
"You still want to go to this Ball even after he hurt us"?
"Yes , I want to take the prettiest girl in Dallas"
"I'm a lady, and I'm not the prettiest so who are you taking"?
Ray smiled, "You moody lets go". Ray grabbed her hand, and the two of them left the house, to go to find a dress for Jessie.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Jul 21, 2012 10:29:36 GMT -6
Jock was wrong not to hear ray out great update Jessie ________
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Post by Sanda on Jul 21, 2012 11:00:07 GMT -6
Great update Jessie. I agree with Melinda that Jock was wrong not to hear Ray out.
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Post by jessie on Jul 21, 2012 20:35:50 GMT -6
Chapter 29
Ray took Jessie to the mall , and smiled telling her to pick a place to go in first. Jessie was a little overwhelmed she didn't like asking for anything, and she was use to not getting much, and Ray being so generous was nice, but a little stressful for her. She pointed to a shop, and they went in, and Jessie was looking around. She knew with her scars she had to pick a dress that covered her shoulders. She saw a pick dress, and she walked over touching it, and turned to Ray.
"Ray what do you think of this one"?
"Go try it on, we can see what it looks like". Jessie took the dress over to the dressing rooms, they told her to go in. She was changing, she slipped the dress on, it fit perfect, she opened the door, and walked over to the mirror, and she smiled as Ray walked up behind her touching her shoulders.
"Oh you sure do look pretty in pink"
"I don't look like me , I look pretty"
"You are pretty why would you say that"?
Jessie turned, Ray could see tears in her eyes, and he just knew her creep Foster Dad told her all the time she was ugly, and it made him angry seeing she was judging herself.
"This is the dress we should get I doubt we can find anything this great even if we try"
"Ray it costs to much it is to expensive"
"Money doesn't matter"
"Ray you sure"
"Yes I want to buy this for you". She smiled, she went into the dressing room, and changed . She came out, he asked her if she wanted anything else. She said she could use a new pair of shoes, and some stockings to wear with the dress. She bought a few undergarments, and stockings, and they paid, and left the store. They went to the shoe store, and bought her a pair of shoes, and Ray bought her a pair of cowboy boots. They left the store carrying the bags, Ray asked her if she wanted a drink before dinner?
"Yes I would like a milkshake". They went to the food court, he got them both a milkshake. They were drinking it, Jessie smiled as Ray reached over holding her hand.
"Ray thanks for everything, how can I ever repay you for everything"
"I'm not going to say this again, I don't want anything , I love doing this for you"
Jessie leaned over kissing Ray , and than smiled as she took a sip of her milkshake. They were just about to leave when Pam, Bobby, and Christopher walked over to them, and said hi.
Ray, and Jessie said Hi, but Jessie was a little shy, she wondered if Jock told them what he was upset about.
Pam smiled, "I see you bought a dress for the Ball"
"Yes it is pretty Ray bought it for me"
Christopher smiled, "We are going to eat at Lee's Rib house, why don't you join us"?
Ray smiled, "I would love to but I'm sure Mommy , and Daddy want a family night out"?
"No it would be nice to have you both join us if you like". Bobby said
Ray turned to Jessie, "Would you like to go out to dinner with them"?
"Sure I would like that". Ray grabbed her bags, and was talking to Bobby as Christopher asked if he could go in the music store before they leave. Bobby, Ray, and Christopher went into the music store while Pam touched Jessie's arms, and asked her how she was really doing?
"Great I guess Jock told you what Terry is saying about me, and Ray"
"Yes he told us, and I was kind of shocked"
"Nothing happened Ray has been nothing but kind, and Mr. Ewing took the word of that creep over Ray"
"Are you, and Ray getting closer"?
"Yes I'm falling in love with him, but he is willing to wait, he thinks I'm worth it, he cares about me"
Pam smiled, "I care too, I just worry"
"Don't but you can tell Mr. Ewing he is wrong, and he owes Ray an apology for not believing in him, and in me"
"Jock is angry"
"Yes so am I"
Pam smiled, "I will tell Jock he is wrong, but promise me you will call me anytime when you need someone to talk to"
"Pam"
"Yes"
"How will I know when I'm ready, I don't want to hurt Ray, but I know he will get tired of waiting, he shouldn't have to"
"If he loves you he will wait as long as it takes, but when the time is right you will know trust me."
Jessie smiled, "You are a good friend Pam, I don't have many friends"
"I'm glad you feel that way". They jump when Bobby, and Ray walked over, and asked them what they were talking about?
Jessie smiled, "We were having a girls chat"
Ray smiled as he handed Jessie a bag, and she opened it.
"Oh Ray Tina Turner greatest hits I love her"
"I know that is why I bought that for you"
"I will want to listen to it in the truck you will be sorry"
"I wouldn't mind as long as I know it makes you happy". Jessie hugged him, and Pam smiled she could see Ray was good to her, and she could see they made a cute couple, she hoped nothing else would go wrong for them.
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Post by Sanda on Jul 21, 2012 23:40:00 GMT -6
Cute update Jessie. I LOVE that Ray and Jessie bumped into Bobby, Pam, and Christopher at the food court when they were out shopping at the mall. I also LOVED the talk between Pam and Jessie as well in this chapter.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Jul 22, 2012 12:07:05 GMT -6
Loved the talk between jessie and pam great job Jessie
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Post by jessie on Jul 28, 2012 2:17:55 GMT -6
Chapter 30
Ray, Jessie, Christopher, Pam, and Bobby had a lovely supper. They finished, and they all walked back to their car, and said their goodbyes.
Ray was driving home, and Jessie put in her Tina Turner CD. She was so happy Ray was smiling seeing her singing to the songs. They drove up to the house, and Jessie grabbed her CD, and the bags, and got out of the car. They walked up to the house, and Ray opened the door. Jessie put the bags down, and hung up her sweater , and grabbed Ray's jacket, and hung it up. She said she was going to hang up her dress, and than make them a coffee. Ray said that would be nice. She grabbed her bags, and went down the hall, and hung up her dress, but not before putting it against her, and looking in the mirror. She loved the dress so much. She put her other stuff away, and than washed her hands. She walked down the hall, and smiled as Ray said he already started the kettle for the coffee.
"Why I was going to do it"?
"I can put water on silly, it was nice today with Pam, and Bobby, and Christopher"
"Yes it was Pam is sweet"
"Yes she is Christopher likes you"
"He is cute he asked me to have a play date with him, but I would if I could bring him here"
"I could ask Pam she probably wouldn't mind"
"You dated Pam Ray"
"A long time ago Jessie she is Bobby's girl now"
"Yes they are in love, I want that someday"
"What Bobby"?
"No silly love like real love like theirs"
"Yes they have a special relationship but they have had hard times too"
"Ray who else have you dated you never dated JR's wife have you"?
"Why would you ask that"?
"Just asking I wasn't being rude"
"No I never dated Sue Ellen she is off limits"
"Why"?
"I said so JR would not take kindly of you talking about his wife like that"
"Ray why are you angry, I was just asking you dated Pam, Sue Ellen is beautiful"
"Jessie stop with the questions"
Jessie walked over grabbing two mugs, and Ray walked over behind her, and wrapped his arms around her.
"I hate yelling at you but I just hate discussing my past with people"
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you, I'm just scared that one day you will look at me, and think I'm not pretty like your other girlfriends. I never had a boyfriend before, I just want to know everything about you"
"You would run for the woods if you knew stuff I did in my past so I'm keeping it my secret"
Jessie smiled, "Nothing you did could be worse than what I let him do to me". Jessie went into Ray's arms, and he whispered, "That is the past, I'm your future, I don't want you blaming yourself anymore"
"I feel horrible saying this but one night I was cooking supper , and he hurt me that afternoon, I was hurting so bad, and I almost hurt him back. I had the knife, and I could have killed him he wasn't facing me, but I couldn't".
"Oh Jessie "
"Does that make me a coward"?
"No you are not him but I wouldn't blame you if you had, I can't say I would be as kind as you the guy would be sorry if he ever showed up here"
"You would protect me wouldn't you"?
"Yes but you should be proud he hurt you so bad but you survived , and you are one special young lady"
"I always wanted to save myself for the man I marry but he took that away from me."
"Lets have that coffee, and than we can go sit on the swing on the porch, and we can just cuddle"
"Ray Krebbs do you like to cuddle"?
"With you I do"
Jessie smiled as she hugged him than ran over to make the coffee as Ray watched her. He knew talking about it might help Jessie but hearing what that creep did makes him so angry, he wants to hurt the guy so he can never harm another person like he hurt Jessie.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Jul 28, 2012 6:44:47 GMT -6
poor Jessie I hope she can overcome her insecurities around Ray. good job Jessie!
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Post by Sanda on Jul 28, 2012 12:38:27 GMT -6
Great update Jessie. Poor Jessie. I don't blame Ray for wanting to hurt the creep that hurt Jessie.
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Post by jessie on Aug 1, 2012 1:09:19 GMT -6
Chapter 31
Jessie and Ray were on the porch swing drinking their coffee. Jessie was kind of quiet, and Ray asked her what was wrong.
"I was wondering why Mr. Ewing took their word over ours"
"He is a great man, I'm not sure why he did that Jessie"
"It isn't fair, I loved working with you, and I did a great job, and the horses trust me, they will wonder why I'm not there anymore"
"They will survive"
Jessie got up, "You don't seem to care that I can't work with you"
"Jessie come sit down"
"No you don't care do you"
"Yes I do I think it sucks but Jock has the final say"
"Yeah he does but his final say is wrong"
"I will talk to him again but give him a few days"
"Yeah a few days sure"
"You have a stubborn streak in you girl"
Jessie leaned on the banister, and looked over the land.
Ray got up , and touched her shoulders, as Jessie leaned into him.
"Jessie I know your angry, but I have to let Jock cool down , than I will discuss this with him again"
"I'm scared to be here alone Ray what if he finds me"?
"He won't find you here"
"You seem so sure but what if he does"?. Jessie hugged Ray, and he pulled her close, and whispered, "I promise you he will not come looking for you here, and my bet he is scared to death that you went to the police so he probably is counting his lucky stars that he is not in a jail Cell right now"
"I hope your right "
"You seem cold do you want to go inside"?
"Yes it is a little chilly". Ray , and Jessie went inside, and Ray locked the door. Jessie put the cups in the sink, and rinsed them, and Ray walked up behind her.
"Do you want to turn in Jessie I'm beat"?
"Yeah I'm kind of beat too". They turned everything off, and walked down the hall. Jessie stopped as Ray touched her cheek, and whispered.
"Do you want me to join you tonight, just to snuggle"?
"Sure"
"I will get changed go get ready for bed". Ray walked to his room, and Jessie went into her room, and ran over grabbing her nightgown, and ran to the bathroom. She changed she brushed her teeth, and opened the door to find Ray laying on the bed. Jessie turned the bathroom light off, and walked over getting in bed beside Ray. He moved over as she snuggled into him, but they were facing each other.
"Maybe this isn't a good idea"
Jessie giggled, "Why"?
"I am falling in love with you Jessie"
Jessie smiled but she whispered, "I love you too Ray"
He moved away turning his back to her making her sit up.
"Ray why did you turn away from me"?
"Jessie go to sleep"
Jessie moved close, and wrapped her arms around him, making him turn, and he kissed her, and she wrapped her arms around his shoulders. He stopped, and whispered, "If I don't leave this room this instant we are in serious trouble"
"I don't want you to leave"
"Jessie I want to make love to you, I have all day, but I'm dying here"
Jessie touched his lips, and smiled as Ray brought his lips over her neck, and she shut her eyes, she was kind of freaking out, but she really loved Ray, and wanted to show him how much, but she was so afraid she would disappoint him, it made her heart race, but as he slowly put his hand up her nightgown, she froze she was hearing Ray, but she was hearing her Foster Father calling her disgusting names, and it was confusing her, Ray kept going not realizing she was having conflicting feelings, as he got up undressing, as Jessie tried to compose herself, but she yelled out, shut up, just shut up, startling Ray, as he undressed.
Ray grabbed his shirt, as he yelled, "You said it was OK, now your freaking out, I don't know what to do with you"
Jessie sat up trying to grab his arm, but he ran out of her room, and went to his slamming the door shut. Jessie started to cry, she put her hands over her ears she was still hearing her Foster Dad calling her a Tramp, and worse, she grabbed her pillow, and threw it. She finally got up, she walked out of her room, and walked over to Ray's, and knocked. He didn't answer, she knocked again, and cried out.
"I'm sorry it wasn't you, I'm so messed up, please forgive me. Ray please forgive me, I never wanted to hurt you". Ray was laying on his bed, he didn't say a word, and he heard her crying. He was so angry, he finally got up, and walked over opening the door, and Jessie went to run to him, but he held her back.
"Jessie I care for you but this is freaking me out. You made me feel like I was hurting you, and that made me sick"
"I'm sorry"
"Go sleep Jessie it is OK, I want to sleep alone tonight"
"No please I need you beside me"
"Jessie no go to bed alone". Ray walked into his room, and slammed the door, Jessie screamed out his name, he felt bad but he locked the door, and went to bed. He finally fell asleep he woke up at 5am , he thought he would get dressed go to work, and not wake Jessie he didn't know what to say to her right now. He got dressed, and opened his door, and almost tripped over her. She was laying on the floor outside his door, Ray knelt down, and touched her shoulder, and she jumped up.
"Jessie why did you sleep out here "?
"I thought you would forgive me, but you didn't"
"Come on lets get you to bed you look exhausted"
Ray helped her to her room she laid on the bed, and he felt so responsible he was a fool she didn't mean to hurt him, but his pride got in the way he was selfish.
Ray touched her shoulder, "I'm phoning Jock, and ask for a sick day, I'm never off"
"Don't he hates me already"
"No he doesn't you rest, and I will be right back"
"OK". Ray walked out to phone Ray as Jessie shut her eyes, and tried to fall asleep.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Aug 1, 2012 6:36:43 GMT -6
poor Jessie, I hope she and Ray can get through this okay. good job Jessie!
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Post by Sanda on Aug 1, 2012 9:25:27 GMT -6
Great update Jessie. Poor Jessie. Ray was so wrong to walk out on Jessie, slam the door in her face and lock Jessie out of his room becuase of the stuff her foster father did to her. I don't blame Jessie for camping outside of his room all night.
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Post by jessie on Aug 2, 2012 1:34:12 GMT -6
Chapter 32
Ray called Jock, and told him he was taking a sick day today.
"Why Ray you seemed fine yesterday"?
"Actually Jessie is not feeling well, and I'm not leaving her alone"
"Is this payback for telling you she couldn't work around the ranch anymore"
"No it is not payback, but you were wrong believing those two over me, and Jessie"
"Ray I want you to go to work, Jessie will be fine"
"I can't Jock"
"Ray it is a order not a request"
"Fire me if you have to but I have not asked for a day off all year so I think I am entitled to one today"
"Fine you better be at work tomorrow" Jock hung up on Ray.
Ray was angry he went to the kitchen, and got Jessie a juice, and walked back to her bedroom. She was laying there but she couldn't sleep so he walked over handing her some juice. She sat up, and took a sip, and whispered.
"Thank you Ray"
"Well I have the day off you were right Jock was angry, but who cares"
"You do Ray he will blame me"
"No he won't drink up , and lay back, and get some sleep"
"Ray I want to explain about last night"
"I know what happened you were not ready, and I overreacted"
"I wanted to make love Ray but he was in my head, I freaked out"
"Jessie you need help"
"No I can't tell a complete stranger what he did to me"
"You trusted me we will find someone you trust a woman"
"Why can't I block him out of my head I hear his voice, he is calling me awful disgusting names. He use to hurt me, and yell at me at the same time saying I brought this on myself, but I didn't do anything, I would pray to God every night that he would leave me alone, why didn't God help me, why didn't he make him stop"
"God heard your prayer but it was out of his hands, your Foster Dad was sick, and he said horrible disgusting things to you to make you feel like it was your fault but it was him not you"
"I hurt you Ray, I am so sorry"
"I was hurt but I was wrong not understanding what your going through"
"Ray how can I make his voice go away, I want to forget everything up until the day I met you. Don't give up on me please, I can't lose you Ray your all I have". Jessie was holding his arm tears rolled down her cheek, Ray pulled her close, and whispered.
"You will always have me Jessie, and I will be more patient, will you forgive me"
Jessie whispered, "There is nothing to forgive but don't you ever slam your door in my face again. You should yell at me, but don't shut me out, I was so scared, I thought I lost my only friend"
"Never Jessie"
Ray rocked her in his arms, he felt her relax, and after a few moments, he noticed she was sound to sleep, but he didn't want to let her go yet so he kept rocking her. He heard someone banging on the front door so he laid her back, she whispered, "Ray"
"I will be right back you sleep" She turned over, and shut her eyes, as Ray got up shutting the door, and ran down the hall because the person was banging on the door.
Ray opened the door, and he saw Ellie, and Jock standing there. Jock was not looking so happy but Ellie handed Ray some muffins, and asked if they could come in. Ray let them in, but he was really not in a mood for a lecture, not today he was tired, and really worried about Jessie.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Aug 2, 2012 7:18:14 GMT -6
i wonder what Ellie and Jock have to say, very good update Jessie
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