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Chapter 88
Jessie walked over to Ray, and smiled at JR.
"JR I'm real sorry I hope you forgive me for smacking you yesterday, I had no right"
"Oh it didn't hurt you hit like a girl"
Jessie giggled, "It hurt but I'm sorry"
"No problem I better go deal with my wife who is sulking now upstairs because of you two"
"I don't understand"?
"Jessie she wants another child and now that you announced you, and Ray here are having a little rug rat she is going to drive me insane. I guess I better go up, and try to make her happy if you know what I mean'. JR walked away, Jessie blushed, but Ray looked angry, and Jessie leaned into him.
"Ray I think everyone is OK with what happened yesterday, you were right they are great people"
"Jessie lets go home, I'm kind of tired, and we have a lot to do before tomorrow"
"I'm going to be Mrs Ray Krebbs in 24 hours"
"Yeah lets go"
"Ray are you mad at me what have I done now"
"Nothing do I have to beg you to do anything say your goodbyes, and meet me in the car. Ray stormed off, and went to his truck, but Jessie was confused, and Pam walked over to her.
"What is up with Ray"?
"He seems upset with me, I don't know what I did now."
"Oh Ray has his moods you didn't do anything go home, and just be yourself, and he will be fine".
"Thank you Pam I really treasure your friendship, I never had a friend before"
Ray rolled down his window, "Jessie please hurry up, I'm tired". Jessie hugged Pam, and ran over hugging Miss Ellie, and said goodbye. She waved at Lucy, and ran to the truck. She barely got in before Ray stormed off. Bobby looked at Pam, and said.
"What is wrong with Ray he was kind of rude"?
"I don't know but he is lucky she is sweet, but she doesn't need to be hurt anymore"
"I know I don't think she should have had a child so soon after losing the other one. She still hasn't dealt with the rape, and the death of her Foster Dad yet"
"I know but Ray cares for her you think that to Bobby please don't tell me you think he is marrying her only because he got her pregnant"
"Ray is a great man, I know he loves her, but he wants children so I'm sure he is happy she is pregnant"
Pam smiled, "She is happy with him, I will be glad when they marry tomorrow, and maybe she will feel better about everything, and start to heal"
"She is sure lucky to have you as a friend"
"She said that too but what about Lucy"
Bobby laughed, "Lucy is something she gets Jessie in trouble, but Lucy means well"
"I know how about we go inside we have the day off work, I'm surprised JR closed down Ewing Oil for 3 days due to this wedding tomorrow"
"Oh he did for Mama's sake but rest assure he will be doing business by phone"
"Sue Ellen was angry did you see her face"?
"Yeah I think she was a little jealous Jessie is pregnant"
"Can I say something Bobby"
"Of course"
"I'm a little jealous too, I want to have another baby too, but we have tried, and tried, and it isn't in the cards for us"
"Hey would you like to try again right now"?
"Bobby Ewing"
"Oh Pammie lets go for it, Clayton took John Ross, and Christopher into town to buy them a dress shirt tomorrow, so we have some alone time what do you say"?
"I say what are we waiting for". They held hands, and ran inside.
Ray drove all the way to the house without saying a word. Jessie knew something was wrong but she kept talking, but he just nodded, and she tried to pretend she didn't notice how angry he seemed. He got out of the car, and opened her door, but normally he held her hand, but he started to walk up the stairs to his home, and opened the door. Jessie walked in behind him, and shut the door as Ray hung up his coat.
Jessie hung up her jacket, and she asked Ray what he wanted for breakfast?
"Nothing I'm going to lay down in my room, I need some alone time, I'm exhausted"
"You don't want to eat first"?
"No"
"Ray something is wrong why are you being this way"
"God Jessie stop I need to be alone don't you understand stop smothering me for God sake"
Ray turned, and walked down the hall, and went into his room slamming the door making Jessie jump. Tears fell down her cheek she was confused, and hurt why was he so angry. She walked over to the couch, and sat down, she was replaying the morning in her head, and she couldn't remember doing anything wrong. She grabbed the pillow, and laid down , and tried to hold back tears, but she couldn't breath she knew something was wrong, and for the life of her she didn't know why, but she had a bad feeling she was going to lose him, and she didn't understand why.
She sat up her head was spinning she remembered her Foster dad, and all the mean things he said to her. She put her hands over her ears, and whispered.
"Shut up your dead, you are right, I will never be happy are you happy, why didn't you just kill me you sick pig". Jessie wanted to block everything out she jumped up running over to the stereo, and put on a record, and put the sound up to the highest level, and she yelled.
"Go away, I want you to go away, you are dead, and I'm happy you are dead". She started to cry, "I wish I killed you , I hate you, I let you hurt me, but I'm tired of letting you hurt me.".
Ray jumped off the bed, and was about to scream at her how dare her play the music like that. He ran down the hall, but noticed her by the stereo she was talking to herself, but he could see she out of it.
Ray froze as Jessie fell to her knees, and she screamed.
"God why do you hate me, why do you want to hurt me , I just want to have peace, but you are punishing me, what have I done, I want to know". Jessie started to scream again Ray ran over, and grabbed her but he looked into her eyes, and he was sick she was in so much pain, and he knew he brought it on with his stupid behavior.
"Jessie I'm here I'm sorry I hurt you"
"What did I do to you, I can't do anything right, God just tell me what I did to you now"?
"Nothing I was angry at JR he said I was using you, and I was so angry but I took it out on you"
Jessie was shaking she screamed, "I didn't deserve that, I have been nothing but good to you". She pushed Ray back , and got up, and ran to her room, but Ray got up, and ran after her.