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Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 3, 2011 12:06:35 GMT -6
ch 6
Pam answered the door, stunned to see Ryan back already. She let him and Michael in, and her mind raced in a thousand directions.
“How is she? Is she going to be okay?”
“The doctors say she’s going to be just fine. Just a little cosmetic damage, but you ladies can fix that with makeup can’t you?” Michael smiled helpfully as he had realized that Ryan really didn’t know what to say. “Makeup- boy you should see Holly without it. She looks like –I don’t know what, she still looks beautiful without her makeup on but I know it will do wonders for Kelly, she’s always been good at that type of stuff, hasn’t she Ryan?”
“Michael,” Pam shot him a dirty look, used to his inappropriateness but hoping that his sensitivity would kick in during this time.
“Hey Ryan, you might know this, don’t they wear those head scarf things in India?”
“Michael,” Pam and Ryan said at the same time. He looked at them both. “Sorry, I was just trying to help. You know I love Kelly and you know how I feel about you Ryan and I just want to make things as easy for you as possible…”
“How bad it it?” Pam asked, turning to Ryan. “I mean, she’s going to get through this won’t she? Will she need any operations?”
“I don’t know yet,” he admitted. “Everything’s happened so fast. I saw her and then I kind of freaked.”
“What do you mean you freaked?”
“I left. I couldn’t deal with it, okay? I’m not like you and Jim. Do you want to know how perfect Jim is? He’s in with Kelly now probably telling her how beautiful and perfect she is when that’s my job. I can’t even do that. I can’t sell paper, I ‘m a lazy father-Kelly does all the work, so I’m standing here freaking out how I’m going to raise a kid by myself until Kelly gets better, and I’m the worst husband there ever was for even thinking these thoughts .”
“Ryan, first of all, you’re not a bad father- Kelly brags on you all the time. I know she would have absolute faith in you to raise Bailey by yourself until things get back together-but you won’t be alone. Bring her to Holly’s and my home, we’ll help you, I’m sure Pam and Jim will help you, you’ll have everything you need. And as for Jim and Pam, well, we can’t all be Jim and Pam,” Michael said, almost helping Ryan out.
“Ryan, it doesn’t come easy for Jim and me. We have to work at it just like you’re going to have to. This won’t be easy, I won’t lie to you,” Pam spoke up, touching his hand at the same time. “But you’re going to have to decide that you’re going to do this. Michael and Jim and I can be there for you but you’re the one that’s going to have to do the work. Kelly needs you- so that means stop being so selfish and put someone ahead of yourself for once. You’re a father- you know how to do that. You need to decide what’s important, you acting like a scared child or behaving as If you’re the parent of one and doing the right thing. We won’t hold your hand but we’ll stand by you as long as you do the right thing.”
Ryan looked at Michael, then at Pam. “What if I can’t do this? What if I’m just not cut out to be the kind of husband that she needs?
Michael stared at his employee. “Then you have about sixty seconds to decide what you’re going to do with your life because I’m not going to stand by and let you destroy Kelly and Bailey’s.”
Ryan took a deep breath; he was definitely not used to Michael speaking to him that way. He was bad at confrontation, but he wanted to yell at Michael that he was as shallow as he was. He was the one that had dictated to the office the kind of woman they should-no had to-set him up with. Ryan knew he should have been angry with his boss for confronting him, but he knew he was right. He had to straighten up, or this was never going to work. Kelly did everything she did because she loved him and their daughter; the least he could do was show her how he felt about her. The only question was not what would happen when he let her down, but when it would happen. The thought was too much for him to think about, so made his way into the room where his daughter was sleeping, looked in on her, and remembered why it was he was doing what he needed to. Bailey was so lucky- she was sleeping, so innocent. He knew for her starting tomorrow things would be different, and they all depended on him. He hoped he could do it, for her and Kelly’s sake.
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Post by Sanda on Dec 3, 2011 21:14:48 GMT -6
Great update MelindaJo. Ryan needed to hear everythng that Pam and Michael were telling in this chapter about Kelly. Please update this awesome story again soon.
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Post by jessie on Dec 3, 2011 21:26:48 GMT -6
Awesome update I feel bad for Ryan, but he really has to grow up, and be there for Kelly. He did need to hear what Pam, and Michael said. Lets hope it sunk in, and he will be there for Kelly, she never needed him more, than she does now.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 12, 2011 16:16:16 GMT -6
ch 7
“Kel?” Ryan asked as he entered her room with much trepidation. He could barely look at her, but he saw enough to know that Jim was sitting by her side, holding her hand, and he didn’t like it. Of course nothing was going on, but Jim was doing what he should be doing- comforting his wife. Ryan never wanted to find out, but he was pretty sure Jim wouldn’t appreciate it if Ryan were sitting by Pam’s side if the situations were reversed.
“Go away Ryan.”
“Please, don’t be like that. I know that I let you down and I don’t blame you for hating me but I really want to be with you…”
“No, Ryan. You rather have had seen Pam than me. It was easier for you to face a normal looking woman than your own wife! How was that supposed to make me feel? You abandoned me when I needed you the most. I thought you had changed. Everyone told me for years how selfish you were, but I was the only one who defended you. Even Michael keeps telling me how selfish you are.”
“Kelly,” Jim spoke up uncomfortably. “I think that Ryan just went back to my house to check on the baby. I normally wouldn’t take his side but I think in this case …”
“So you’re taking his side? You would. It’s easy for you to sit out and dish out marriage advice- you and Pam have the perfect marriage. You would never leave Pam’s side if something like this happened to her, tell me the truth Jim,” Kelly ordered.
Jim looked away.
“Answer me.”
“I honestly can say that I’ve never thought about it and I really don’t want to think about it…”
“See Ryan, I was right. He would never walk away from Pam. Why did you get married anyways?” she turned to her husband. “ Was it because I asked you too many times and you just wanted to shut me up?” Kelly looked away, not wanting him to see her cry.
Jim pulled Ryan off to the side. “I don’t care what you have to do, what you have to say, how uncomfortable this makes you, you don’t leave until you make this right by Kelly. You’ve always made a mess of things and left it for everyone else to clean up but that’s not going to happen this time. You need to be the man you became the day you got married and show her that you love her. I love CeCe and I understand you needing to check on your kid but I can promise you, if that were Pam lying in there, I would not leave her side until I told her that she was the most beautiful woman in the world- and she believed me.”
Ryan hated Jim most of the time, but he knew that he was right. He could use all the key words in business to make a good impression with his bosses, but when it came to the matters of the heart he was useless. How could he get Kelly to see how much she meant to him? All he knew was that Jim was right- he was not leaving there until she knew it, even if it killed him.
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Post by jessie on Dec 12, 2011 16:23:55 GMT -6
Awesome update Jim is amazing, poor Kelly she must be so hurt. I feel bad for Ryan maybe he doesn't know how to express his feelings like most guys don't. ;D I love this story,I hope Kelly will be ok, and I hope Ryan can make things right.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 13, 2011 11:22:48 GMT -6
ch 8
Ryan walked up to Kelly and pulled up a seat. He took her hand and at first she refused it but he kept taking it until she finally relaxed.
“Kel…look at me,” Ryan managed to say, his voice already choking up.
“I don’t want you to see me. I don’t blame you for not being here. I wouldn’t want to look at me either,” Kelly replied, scared of what he had to say.
“I love you Kel, and I’m not leaving here until you look at me. I’ll stay here all day and all night if I have to. I want you to look at me.”
She turned around, and Ryan tried not to react. But she could sense the fear from his eyes, and she turned back around again.
“Listen to me. I know that you know I’m scared. But we both know that I’m not nearly as scared as you are and this is what this is about. I can’t speak for you but I can only speak for myself. I’m scared- I thought I had lost you and I don’t know what I would do if that ever happened. So I freaked. I’m sorry. I’m not perfect, but that’s why I love you so much. You know that I’m not perfect and you love me anyways and I need you more than ever. Please- can you try to forgive me? I will do whatever I have to do to help you.”
Kelly faced him and she was smiling this time, for the first time since the accident. “I always loved you Ryan. I knew it from the first time I saw you. Everyone told me I was crazy…” she laughed.
“You might still be,” he laughed as he wiped his eyes. “I know that I don’t deserve you but you make me very happy. I hope to make you that happy as well.”
“Ryan, do you want to make me happy?”
“Of course!”
“Then let me go.”
“What?” He looked at Jim, who looked as confused as Ryan was.
“I mean it. I want a divorce.”
“You just told me how much you loved me, why would you want a divorce..”
“Look at me! You’re a great looking guy. Why would you want to be saddled with a freak? Oh it might be fun at first..look how wonderful I am taking care of a sick girl but then it would start to get old and then the new girl at work would start to look good and you might start coming home a little later at night and the next thing I know you’ve fallen in love and left me and Bailey all alone. I won’t have that.”
“That would never happen, you’re being ridiculous.”
“Now I’m ridiculous?” Kelly demanded. “You fell in love with me at work, why? Because I was so happy and cute. Now I’m not so happy and cute and you’re going to get bored. It happens all the time. I know you Ryan…looks are everything to you.”
Everyone grew quiet. Again, Ryan looked at Jim, who just nodded at Kelly’s last statement.
“Is that really what you think of me?”
“I don’t know. Kind of. Sort of. Yeah. I mean you use more hair products than I do. You spend more time in the mirror than I do. Your side of the closet is bigger than mine,” Kelly pointed out.
“Kelly I know I love to look good and I love my clothes and yes, appearances are the first thing I notice about a person. But when I see you I don’t see the outside. I don’t even see the accident. I see the woman I married, the mother of my child. The woman who always makes me laugh, even when I’m ticked off. The woman who believes the best in everybody, except for Angelina Jolie. I see the woman who loves to live and loves to love, and that’s why I’m not giving up on you. Don’t look at Jim. He never told me to say these things. I said them because that’s what you mean to me,” Ryan said as he gently kissed her hand.
“Oh, Ry, it’s going to be okay, isn’t it?”
“Yes, it really will be. I promise.” He just hoped that he could follow through on his own words, because too much was at stake if he couldn’t.
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Post by jessie on Dec 13, 2011 16:57:23 GMT -6
Beautiful and sad update Ryan was really amazing. I hope he means what he said, I don't blame Kelly for being scared. This is such a wonderful story, can't wait to see what will happen next?
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Post by Sanda on Dec 19, 2011 23:16:02 GMT -6
Great updates MelindaJo. I hope that things work out for Kelly and Ryan in your awesome story.
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Post by jessie on Jul 1, 2012 23:16:07 GMT -6
Are you going to end this awesome story, I hope so it is so good. I miss your Office stories so much.
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Post by Sanda on Jul 1, 2012 23:56:08 GMT -6
Are you going to end this awesome story, I hope so it is so good. I miss your Office stories so much. Melinda, I agree with Jessie, I hope you are going to update this awesome story again really soon. I miss your awesome The Office stories so much.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Oct 4, 2012 18:28:33 GMT -6
i'm sorry for the delay. i will be updating this story more regularly. I hope you like it!
ch 9
The doctors came in and told Ryan that Kelly had to rest, and it was probably for the best. He wasn't really good with the mushy stuff, and if he were honest with himself he didn't know just how strong for Kelly he could be. She was amazing- the perfect wife and mother. And when he stopped to think about how close he had come to losing her, well, the thought was too much to bear.
He looked around and found an empty room. He wasn't a praying man, but tonight he hoped someone would be there for him. His Kelly- who was so proud of her appearance and who took such good care of herself, was damaged, and there wasn't anything he could do to make her feel better. He loved her with all of his heart, but he just didn't know if he could be like Jim. Heck, even Michael would know how to treat Holly should that have happened to them instead.
Tears fell from his eyes for the first time in years. Yes, he used to cry along with Kelly to those chick flicks she used to make him watch, but this was different. He was scared, he was frightened, and he didn't know how to handle his emotions. All he wanted was to make everything go away, but he couldn't, and for that he hated himself.
Kelly. She was far from perfect. She talked too much, was too loud in bed, she read too many girl magazines, she wanted to name their child Beyonce, she chased him even when he didn't want to be chased. But she never for once stopped believing in him, and for that he would be forever grateful. Even when he was in prison she was the only one who came to visit him, and how could he forget that?
She was so beautiful. Even now, she still was amazing. He just didn't know if he had the right words to convey to her how wonderful she looked to him. He wanted to kiss her and hold her close and tell her that everything would be all right, but how could he do that? He wasn't a strong man- he knew that. He never could handle a crisis the way Kelly could. She was good at handling everything that came their way. Even when he cheated, she still loved him. When he was on drugs and in prison, she still loved him. But now this was about her and what she needed, and he began to pray that he could handle this.
Jim came in. “Hey I think the doctors are gone. You can go in and see her if you like.”
“Jim tell me the truth. Do you think I can really do this? Do you think I'm good enough for Kelly?”
Jim paused. “For a long time I didn't, no. That's the truth. But right now all I know is that Kelly needs you and you have to be strong. Don't worry about Bailey for tonight. Stay here with Kelly. I know that in the morning you won't be sorry.”
Ryan nodded. He slowly pulled himself up from the floor and made his way back to his wife's room.
“Kel?”
“I thought you left me.”
“I promise you- I will never leave you. I don't know how we'll get through this but we will. I love you and I know you love me and that's all I need to know.”
So he pulled up a chair and took his wife's hand, holding it until she fell asleep. If he didn't know it before, he knew it then- Ryan Howard was a lucky man.
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Post by jessie on Oct 4, 2012 20:26:57 GMT -6
Awesome update, I loved this update. Beautifully written, I'm glad Ryan is growing up, and realized Kelly is special, and he has to be there for her in every way. You write them so well, great job, I hope you update again soon.
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Post by Sanda on Oct 4, 2012 22:07:10 GMT -6
Great update Melinda. Kelly and Ryan have a long road ahead of them. I am glad that Ryan has finally grown up. Please update this awesome story again soon.
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Post by melindajo2000 on Oct 6, 2012 12:59:31 GMT -6
ch 10
Ryan went in to check on Kelly after grabbing a cup of coffee. To his surprise she was sitting up, crying. He started to panic but Jim and Michael's words had apparently sunk in- he could do this. He had to. Kelly needed him and he had to be the husband she needed.
“Kel?”
“Go away Ryan. I never want to see you again.”
“What's wrong? Will you tell me what has happened? Should I get a doctor?” he looked around uncomfortably.
“I want a divorce.”
That was the last thing he'd been expecting to hear. “What? Did I do something wrong?” Just then he noticed the compact mirror in her hands, shattered into many pieces. He walked over to her and put his arms around her gently. At first she resisted then she reluctantly accepted his embrace.
“I'm not the same girl you married Ryan. I don't blame you for wanting someone else. I never have been your type, have I?”
“You're the perfect girl for me. I don't care what you look like. I just want you to get better.” And to his surprise, he meant it.
“Why are you here? Shouldn't you be with Bailey? She needs you more than I do.”
“Pam has her. She's going to be fine.”
“Oh my God, Bailey. Do you realize that I could have...that I almost...that I would have...”
He took ahold of her hands. “don't even go there Kelly. Our daughter is fine and you have nothing to worry about. You just stay here and take your time in getting better. I'm going to be staying with Michael and Holly for awhile and Pam is going to help out with Bailey. She's going to be fine. You just need to worry about you.”
“Admit it Ryan. The only reason you married me was because you thought I was pregnant. You really don't want to be married to me. It's okay. Here's your free pass. You're free to leave if you want to.”
“You keep pushing me away. Don't you want me? I thought you loved me,” Ryan asked, confused.
“I do but when I think of what could have happened, I don't deserve you. I don't deserve our daughter. I'm the worst mother in the world. I deserve to die alone,” she sobbed.
“Stop that. You're not going to die and you're certainly not going to die alone. You have me and Bailey and we're going to be a family. I don't know how we're going to get through this but we will. Do you trust me?”
“It's me that I don't trust,” Kelly sighed as she turned over to go to sleep. Ryan had never felt so helpless as he did at that moment.
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Post by Sanda on Oct 6, 2012 16:03:07 GMT -6
Great but sad update Melinda. Poor Ryan and Kelly. They have a long and painful road ahead of them. I hope that things get better for them really soon.
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