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Dec 13, 2011 19:13:56 GMT -6
Post by jessie on Dec 13, 2011 19:13:56 GMT -6
Chapter 6
Ryan ran after Melinda she screamed when he grabbed her arm.
"Let go of me now"
"Shh they will lock us in the rubber room if you don't calm down"
"I thought you might be special Ryan but your nothing but a rude little boy"
"Rude I was just saying she must feel guilty her twins died"
"Was it her fault, the Father put the heater on to make them warm. I don't blame him but he fell asleep as the carbon dioxide took over, and they died in their sleep. Jessie went up to bed because she was ill she has no reason to feel guilty. I swear you hurt her Ryan I will hurt you"
"OK calm down, what are you in here for"?
"Do you really want to know"?
Ryan leaned against the wall, "Yeah I think I would like to know"
"So you can judge me too"
"I'm not judging Jessie or you, I just don't talk right sometimes"
"Oh really you think"
Ryan smiled, "Why are you in here"?
Melinda walked over sitting on a bench as Ryan walked over sitting beside her.
"Tell me I will not judge"
"I don't care if you do, Bill's family blames me so if you do, it wouldn't be surprising"
"Blames you for what"?
"Bill was my boyfriend, we got along so well, he was amazing. He was funny, and silly, but he made me laugh, he was such a great guy"
"What happened to him"?
"Me and Bill were out celebrating our 1st year Anniversary together. He took me to this restaurant, I had a few drinks, but he had 1 glass of wine. He worked 7 days straight, but still took me out, he was tired. I should have insisted to wait until he had some rest, but I was selfish, and wanted my night out on the town. We had a great dinner, he wanted to take me to the lighthouse to show me something. I laughed thinking he wanted to make out at the lighthouse but he said no he had a big surprise. He did have a surprise, he invited friends over there. We were going to have this big party with friends , and family. He had a beautiful engagement ring in his pocket. The drive over to the lighthouse it was 1/1/2 hour drive. I fell asleep as we were driving, I don't know what happened but Bill fell asleep too. We hit a car, another lady was killed her kids were saved, but her husband is paralyzed for life. Billy was killed instantly, I broke my arm, and leg, but I was spared. His family blamed me, they were so angry saying I never should have allowed him to drink. He had 1 glass of wine, it wasn't the drinking it was that he was so tired. I never should have drank, and fell asleep. If I stayed awake, I could have kept him awake , and this would have never happened. If anyone deserves to feel guilty it is me, not Jessie. I never tried to kill myself, but I was killing myself by drinking, I lost my job, and so many friends. I wanted to punish myself, I wanted to drink, to forget what I lost. It happened 2 years ago, but it feels like yesterday, so many lives were lost, and I don't understand why it happened. Bill was amazing, but people said he was drinking under the influence, and they called him a murderer. He loved children he would be devastated he took that lady away from her family. I was pregnant , and I didn't know about it, and I lost my baby, and the love of my life, and I want them back". She was crying Ryan pulled her close, he whispered, "It will be OK Melinda, I'm so sorry."
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Dec 13, 2011 19:39:57 GMT -6
Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 13, 2011 19:39:57 GMT -6
oh wow this keeps getting better all the time, I love all the little details you put into it..so sad... but you really make people root for your characters..I hope you update soon!
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Dec 16, 2011 19:37:10 GMT -6
Post by jessie on Dec 16, 2011 19:37:10 GMT -6
Chapter 7
Melinda lets get the food, Jessie and Ben are waiting for us. I'm so sorry , but I want to talk about this more, but lets go to them, Ben is probably driving Jessie insane"
"Ben is not a bad guy Ryan, give him a break. There is only two people that can get through to Jessie it is me, and Ben so he is a great guy"
"Maybe he wants to get lucky with Jessie"
"Really is that what your hoping with me too"?
"No I'm not like that"
"Sure your not, I can see through you Ryan, but your right, I need to check on Jessie"
"You are so good to her, but you need someone to help you too"
"I need to help Jessie it makes me feel focused, than I'm not thinking about my problems"
"You are so brave Melinda, I wish I was more like you"
"I'm not brave, I'm dying inside, but I can't bring Bill, and my Baby back, but I don't want to forget about them, they were the most important part of my life"
"You will be happy again Melinda, someone else will come into our life, but of course you will never forget them"
"Lets go grab lunch, but it is pretty crappy so don't complain" They went to the cafeteria, Melinda laughed, "macaroni yum"
"Oh man macaroni, or slop great choices"
"That is stew but it does look like slop, I'm having macaroni"
"I think we all are having macaroni, or we can give Ben slop"
Melinda smiled, "4 macaroni specials". The lady gave them macaroni, garlic bread, milk and a pudding"
"What are we 2 milk, and pudding"? Ryan said
"Yeah that is the special, don't complain it is good for you"
"You can have my pudding Melinda, I'm willing to share". They smile as she grabbed Jessie, and piece of chocolate cake. "You want one to Ryan"?
"No thanks" They left, and were walking outside. They looked seeing Jessie and Ben sitting on a picnic table near a tree. Ryan and Melinda were walking over. Ryan yelled, "Hey you two, lunch is served"
Ben yelled, "Took you long enough, we thought you forgot about us"
"Like I would Ben" Melinda scolded him, he smiled, "I thought Ryan distracted you, beside Jessie is starving"
Jessie smiled, "Yeah for cake"
"You eat your macaroni first young lady" Melinda said making Ryan smile, "God you take care of everyone Melinda"
"Yes I do so eat Ryan"
They all laugh as Ryan sat beside Melinda, as she leaned against him. Ben whispered, "Jessie I think Ryan is smitten with our girl Melinda"
"Smitten what kind of word is that"? Ryan said
Jessie giggled, "A word someone would use in the movie Gone with the Wind. Melinda loves that movie, I watch it with her they put it on once a month, you will get to watch it with us next week. It is so romantic, I like Rhett he is so strong, and stubborn, and Melinda likes Ashley he is more sweet, and mature"
Ben laughed, "The total opposite of Ryan"
"Ben stop putting Ryan down, he is sweet" Jessie smiled as Ryan whispered, "I'm sweet I like that, but most people don't think I'm mature"
Melinda laughed making everyone else laugh too.
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Dec 16, 2011 19:49:05 GMT -6
Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 16, 2011 19:49:05 GMT -6
I like this chapter, it was fun and Melinda was very cool and in charge, I like her... I'm glad you updated
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Dec 21, 2011 19:51:04 GMT -6
Post by jessie on Dec 21, 2011 19:51:04 GMT -6
God this is a sad chapter it made me cry. That is bad isn't it. Chapter 8 They all finished their lunch, they knew they had to go to the group class, the one class that both Jessie, and Melinda hated. Jessie got up, "Lets go see the ducks in the pond" Ryan laughed, "Ducks why would we do that"? Jessie pouted, "They are adorable, you are a bore Ryan" "I'm a bore, that is new name for me" "Oh I know a good name for you " Ben said but Melinda gave him a look, Ben whispered, "Sorry Melinda" "Will you both be civil your roommates for God sake" Ryan laughed, "Can we switch, I get you, and Jessie can be with Ben" Ben smiled but Melinda whispered, "That is rude Ryan be nice" "Well I would rather room with you, not Mr. Grump over there" Ben whispered, "Romeo, get over yourself" "Be quiet, I will go see the ducks by myself" Jessie walked away, Melinda jumped up, "Enough with the fighting, she doesn't need to see it, and I surely can't stand it. Don't follow us unless you can be nice" Melinda ran after Jessie, Ryan got up, "Man she is angry great Ben" "It was you not me" "Lets clean up, and go say sorry" "Ryan don't hurt Melinda she is a sweet girl" "Don't hurt Jessie she is really messed up Ben" "I like her, I would never hurt Jessie" Ryan smiled, "Lets make a truce, lets only fight when we are alone" Ben smiled as he put the stuff in the garbage, and they walked over to the pond. Jessie was standing by the water, Melinda caught up to her. "Jessie don't run off like that" "They are so innocent look at them" "They are cute " Melinda smiled looking at the ducks. Jessie whispered, "My girls loved to feed the ducks" Melinda touched her shoulder, "Jessie look at me" "Melinda I miss my girls, I miss Macy, and Melissa, I want to be with them" Ben and Ryan walked over, but they stopped when Melinda motioned for them to stay back. "Jessie you listen to me, you are not going anywhere. Your little girls are with their Daddy, and they want you to move on, and be happy, you have to forgive yourself" "Why did he put that stupid heater on, I told him over, and over not to. I hate him he killed my babies, he left me all alone, how could he". Melinda grabbed her, she whispered, "It was a accident, it wasn't anyone fault. He loved you, he would want you to go on" "I hear them call me, they want me to be with them Melinda" Ben walked over, "No they are not calling you it is your imagination Sweetie" "How do you know Ben"? "Because I feel the same way sometimes, my son Ryan died, and my wife blamed me, and I blamed myself" Everyone was looking at Ben he sat down putting his hand over his face. Jessie knelt down, "Ben what happened"? "He was murdered, I was such a fool" They all were shocked, as he started to tell his story. "I was having a Father , and Son day, at the park. We went to McDonald's , than we went to the park. Angie wanted me to take him swimming but Ryan wanted the park, so I took him there. He loved to play in the sand, he could play for hours making little sand castles. I bought a magazine, and I was watching but I started to read, and I swear it was minutes, I looked up, and Ryan was gone. I screamed out his name, finally a lady said she saw a little boy get in a car with a man. I was frantic, I called the police it was 7 days later, they came to my house, and said my son was dead. He was 4 years old, I let him down, I was his Daddy. Jessie you didn't let your girls down, but I let my boy down. I still hear him crying out my name, but I swear I didn't hear a cry or yell that morning. I hear it now, I can't imagine what he went through. I lost my son, and my wife, but I lost everything that day. I don't deserve to be happy, I deserve to feel this way." Ben started to cry, as Jessie hugged him. Melinda started to cry, as Ryan hugged her. Ryan was overwhelmed, he was here because he was a fool, and he needed to grow up. These people had serious issues, and he couldn't imagine, what they are going through.
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Dec 21, 2011 21:00:31 GMT -6
Post by melindajo2000 on Dec 21, 2011 21:00:31 GMT -6
this is so good, you are creating really interesting backstories that are really sad but compelling good job
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Dec 21, 2011 21:16:21 GMT -6
Post by Sanda on Dec 21, 2011 21:16:21 GMT -6
Great updates Jessie. I hope you update this awesome story again soon.
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Jul 2, 2012 20:00:13 GMT -6
Post by jessie on Jul 2, 2012 20:00:13 GMT -6
Chapter 8
Ryan felt horrible as Jessie, and Melinda sat down on the hill, and Jessie laid her head on Melinda's shoulder, and Ben sat over with his hands over his face.
Ryan walked over sitting beside Melinda, and whispered, "I always thought I had problems, but I'm so sorry you three have gone through so much, I would have never survived if I was you"
Ben looked over, "Why are you here"?
"Drugs, drinking and partying, I was trying to be cool, but I was such a fool"
"I thought you were working for a big Paper company"
"I was I started out as a Temp, and worked myself up to a Management job, and landed my butt in here. I don't know what I did but I hurt a lot of people in my life most of all my Mom. She spoiled me, and I took advantage, and she even turned her back on you"
Melinda reached over holding his hand, but said, "I'm sure your Mom did not turn her back on you, but it looks like you needed serious help for your addiction problems"
"Yeah"
Jessie whispered, "I wish there was a drug that can make you forget your past"
Ben jumped up, "No why would you forget your girls they were here, and they need for you to remember them or why else would they even be brought in this world. How sad would it be if you die, and no one remembers you even exist"
Melinda got up, "Ben calm down Jessie didn't mean she wanted to forget her babies she wants to forget the pain"
"I know I want to stop imagining what happened to my boy, but I miss him so much, this isn't fair"
Melinda hugged Ben, and Ryan was impressed Melinda was amazing with everyone, but she wasn't dealing with her own guilt, and problems.
Melinda turned, "We better go back they might come looking for us, and we will lose our TV privileges"
Ben smiled, "Well what they let us watch is crap so who cares"
Jessie whispered, "Melinda will she loves Frasier she watches it everyday at 5pm, I watch for Eddie"
"Oh like you don't like Niles too" Melinda smiled
Frasier what is that"? Ryan asked
Jessie and Melinda look at him, and laugh they couldn't believe he didn't know the show Frasier he really did live a shelter life.
They got up, and Jessie walked over looking at the Ducks one more time. They waited for her, and she turned, and walked over to them, and they went back. They were in trouble they missed their physical Education class, and the Director gave them a lecture. Melinda was happy they didn't take their TV privileges away because it made her smile and forget her problems looking into the lives of made up characters she loved. She often looked at the characters, and wondered which one of her friends were like each character from the show. Ben was a lot like Niles, she wasn't so sure who Ryan reminded her of. Melinda wanted to be a cross from Roz, and Daphne. Jessie was more of a Daphne character, but she needed her Niles, and in Melinda's mind she would love Jessie, and Ben to get together because they both were so lost, but that was out of her hand.
Ryan could see Melinda was daydreaming her grabbed her hand, and squeezed so the Director didn't get anger she wasn't listening to his lecture. They were told they could go to their rooms for a hour rest, than dinner would be served, and than they could go watch their 2 hours of television. They all left Jessie, and Melinda went in their room, and Jessie laid on the bed, and grabbed the teddy bear on her bed, and hugged it.
"Jessie you going to have a nap"?
"Yes are you"?
"Yes, but can I ask you a question"?
"I know what do I think about Ryan, and you want to know if I like him"?
"Yes"
"The truth"
"Yes"
"He is OK but he needs to grow up, but if anyone can help him do that it is you. I'm so sorry I freaked out today, but you help me focus"
"Well what are friends for"?
"Melinda are you scared to go back in the real world"?
'Yeah but when we are ready we will be fine"
Jessie smiled as she shut her eyes, and Melinda sat on her bed, and shut her eyes too, and went to sleep.
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Jul 2, 2012 20:11:02 GMT -6
Post by Sanda on Jul 2, 2012 20:11:02 GMT -6
Great update Jessie. Melinda, Jessie, Ryan, and Ben have a long road ahead of them. I hope you update this awesome story again really soon.
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Jul 3, 2012 9:04:58 GMT -6
Post by melindajo2000 on Jul 3, 2012 9:04:58 GMT -6
poor Jessie and Melinda, I hope they can move on. Loved this update, thank you so much for updating this awesome story!!!
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Jul 18, 2012 0:46:42 GMT -6
Post by jessie on Jul 18, 2012 0:46:42 GMT -6
Ryan is acting like a jerk in this chapter but Ryan has his days where he was one on the Office. Don't worry things will look up for Jessie, Melinda, Ben, and Ryan. Chapter 9
Jessie woke up to Melinda crying out in her sleep. Jessie jumped up, and walked over lightly shaking Melinda making her wake up but she was frantic. Jessie got scared she hated when Melinda had these moments , Jessie was worried because they would take Melinda away for a day or two, and she was alone, she felt scared she needed Melinda near by she was the only person that could talk her down from her panic attacks.
"Melinda hush they will come in, and take you away"
"I hate it here I don't belong here, I'm not crazy "
Jessie turned away, and Melinda grabbed her arm.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean that crazy is a horrible word. I know I messed up but this place is driving me crazy"
"If you leave I won't make it"
"I'm not allowed to leave remember"
Jessie smiled, "We have to get ready for dinner,
"Jessie what do you think of Ryan"?
"He is cute but he is mean sometimes"
"He is trying, I really like him Jessie"
"Oh my"
Melinda smiled, "I think you like Ben, but you won't admit it"
Jessie smiled, "Ben is sweet but I can never be with anyone ever again Melinda, you know why"?
"Your husband, and kids died in a horrible accident it was not your fault Jessie"
"I deserve to be alone, I should have been a better Mom. I love my husband but I keep remembering how I said don't put the heater on, but he wouldn't listen, I should have stopped him, now he is gone, and my babies are gone"
"I lost the love of my life, and I feel guilty but I also know I didn't cause the accident, and I know I have to move on, or I will never make it out of this place"
"Melinda I won't survive out there"
"You will if you get strong, and together we can leave this place, and maybe find a house, and share the rent, we can find jobs, and maybe Ryan , and Ben will be part of our lives"
"You really have feelings for Ryan Melinda"
"Yes but don't tell him he already has a ego"
They heard their door open, and Ryan came in shutting the door.
"Ryan what are you doing you can't come in the ladies rooms"
"I know but Ben is driving me crazy"
"Ben why"? Jessie asked
"He thinks he is the romance director in this place, he keeps giving me a lecture about treating you both like ladies, and to be a gentleman, like I want to be that"
Melinda laughed, "No you like being a bad boy"
"Yeah I always have been one, but not in a bad way"
Melinda smiled, and Ryan walked over, and Jessie sat on her bed, and looked at him.
"I was going to kiss Melinda are you going to watch Jessie"?
"This is my room too Ryan"
"I see you have a boyfriend already what is his name Teddy".?
Melinda jumped up hitting Ryan with a pillow it knocked him backward.
"God Melinda what was that for"?
"Why must you be rude to her"?
"What I wasn't I was kidding with her she has a teddy bear she is a little old to carry a teddy bear around"
"Get out of our room now". Melinda yelled at him.
"I thought the four of us could go down to dinner together"
"I thought so to until you acted like a jerk"
Ryan turned, and walked out, and Melinda shut the door, and walked over sitting beside Jessie.
"I'm sorry Sweetie he is acting like a jerk"
"He is right but this is the only thing I had left of theirs. It was left in the car, I can't throw it away, maybe your right you don't belong in here, but I do"
"Hush lets go to dinner, and if we get chocolate pudding you can have mine"
"I love you Melinda, I know it hurt you to yell at him. Why don't you go to him, I'm not hungry"
"Oh no you don't he blew it, you, me and Ben will go eat, and after we get to watch Frasier, and I wouldn't enjoy myself if you were up here"
"OK"
Jessie walked over putting the teddy bear on her pillow, Melinda smiled as they walked out together to find Ben.
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Jul 18, 2012 0:53:28 GMT -6
Post by Sanda on Jul 18, 2012 0:53:28 GMT -6
Great update Jessie. I agree that Ryan was a jerk in this chapter. I hope you update this awesome story again really soon.
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Jul 18, 2012 18:14:55 GMT -6
Post by melindajo2000 on Jul 18, 2012 18:14:55 GMT -6
loved the update, so happy to see you still writing Office. I have been watching it a lot lately hoping to get inspired. Great job, thank you
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